I saw my tdoc
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| Tue, 07-25-2006 - 6:55pm |
I saw my tdoc today. I was honest with her about my thoughts and the plan I had made. She made me call my pdoc right then and there in her office. I guess she didn't trust me to do it on my own. Anyway, my pdoc put me back on lithium to see if that would help with the depression. I was on it before but on a high dose and it was toxic to my system on the high dose. So she has me on a low dose to see if that works like it did last time. My tdoc is going out of town tomorrow and won't be back until Monday. She told me I could call her but she couldn't guarantee how often she'd check her messages so if it was an emergency to call my pdoc or go to the hospital. But at least she didn't make me sign a contract this time. The last time this happened I had to sign one. I guess that made up for having to call pdoc in her office. That kind of made me feel like I couldn't be trusted. I guess that's my paranoia? I have problems with that as a result of the bipolar. I just want to feel better if it's possible. So, with my tdoc out of town and my reluctance of going to hospitals and my pdoc who doesn't have weekend hours, if my thoughts don't go away or get worse, I may be posting a lot more.
Thanks for listening and making me feel welcome here.
Maui

Hi Maui,
Thank you Lori.
I probably wouldn't have called my pdoc if tdoc hadn't insisted on it. I have been on so many meds in 2 years I'm to a point that I don't think there's a med out there that can stabilize me. But I called her anyway.
I've been seeing this therapist for 3 years and she and I have a really good rapport. That's why I can tell her things that are really hard for me to tell my pdoc or anyone else. Another reason I'm glad for this board. I'm totally anonymous.
I will leave Sunday morning to go pick up my kids and be back Sunday night. In between now and then I will be taking my other dd to the local 4H Fair to occupy my time. I hope it's enough to keep my mind off my thoughts.
Thank you for listening and letting me post here.
Maui
You keep posting away if that what makes you feel safe. Now your tdoc is out of town, but you know that there are other routes open to you if you get into a crisis.
Keep us informed.