I'm so confused! Trigs?
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| Wed, 07-26-2006 - 5:37pm |
All day long I've tried to do things to do things to keep myself busy so I wouldn't think about the thoughts of ending it. All the work I've done today hasn't stopped the thoughts. The confusing thing is right now I don't want to act on the thoughts, they just won't stop and leave me alone. Am I crazy? How do I make the thoughts stop? I've done laundry, paid bills, cleaned my living area, and yet the thoughts keep crashing through. I find myself looking to see what meds I have could cause an o/d. I don't want to o/d though. So why am I looking? I don't want to bother my tdoc with this. She said to call her if I needed anything but she's on vacation. She also told me if it's an emergency to call pdoc or go to the er. Is this an emergency? My mind is swimming right now and I have no clue as to any answers. Any help or insight would be appreciated. Thank you again for listening.
Maui

Sandra.
Have you been alone all day? Is there someone who could give you a big hug? I have had the same song- the one that goes, "These five words in my head, are we having fun yet?" in my head for two days, it's driving me crazy although I know it's not the same thing. I can't stop it either. I dont' know why the brain gets stuck on "repeat" like this. It's like a radio that I can't turn off.
Has this happened to you often or is this the first time?
Best wishes and keep posting! It definitely helps!
allie