Don't want to live anymore

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Registered: 10-04-2004
Don't want to live anymore
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Sun, 07-30-2006 - 1:09am
Kind of glad I found this board.
I'm just tired of everything. I'm always alone, I don't have any friends, and my family thinks Im a huge failure. ive tried online dating, but they men think im fat, because Im 5'8 and 160 pounds. guys have emailed me really hateful things once they realize how fat i am, calling me a cow and worse. all i can do is sit and think of how ugly and fat and alone i am. the only thing thats kept me going is that i have hope things will get better but i know thats not true. im just too much of a coward to do anything.i mean, is not wanting to live anymore really that bad?
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Registered: 03-09-2005
Sun, 07-30-2006 - 4:52pm

Sunlight,

What a beautiful screen name! I totally understand the feelings you have. I also feel depressed and alone and don't want to deal with it anymore a lot.

Some people are so mean online. People are pretty mean in general. People's cruelty and meaness appalls me at times. I'm thin but even though they can't criticize my weight, mean people will ALWAYS find something bad to say. So it's not your weight sunlight, it's their hearts (or lack of them.) You could weight 130 lbs and those type of people would still find something to pick on.

You won't be alone if you come here- we care about you even though we don't know each other. Say whatever you need to say, we'll probably understand.




Edited 7/30/2006 4:56 pm ET by bluerains
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sun, 07-30-2006 - 10:30pm

Hi Sunlight and welcome to the board! Bluerains is right---what a pretty screen name you chose! I'm glad you found us--I think you'll find a great bunch of ladies here who are very supportive and caring!


Dating is tough, period!! And online dating has it's pros and cons like everything else. On the pro side, you have safety because you've not yet met in person. People also like the fact that physical attractiveness doesn't come into the picture as early as in "real life" which gives them time to know each other based on personality--which, if you ask me, I think that is much better than judging whether you like someone based on a physical feature or some

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