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Registered: 10-21-2004
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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 12:20am
Hi everyone, I am new here, and I just have a question. First off, let me say that I am not a suicidal person at all, but I went through a couple of rough months with anxiety, panic and phobia's, which naturally made me terrified that I was dying. I then had a bout of very mild depression which is over now, but during that time, I had, not thoughts of suicide, but the word would flash through my head, and I would be like " huh, that was strange". Anyways, I feel better and I am happy and have good support, but it is still happening, here's the catch to it though.... I bring it on myself... I no this sounds very strange, but I will be completely fine all day long, and then I will stop and be like " hey I havent had that strange thought at all today" and then I think about it and it freaks me out!! I no that this is caused by the phobia of death, and it is something I would NEVER act on, but it still freaks me out just the same. I was wondering if anyone else here has ever had an experience like this, and if so, could you please give me some advice on how to make it stop, or how to not worry about things like this?? Thank you all for your time and any and all advice or input is welcome!!
Thank you
Kindra
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Registered: 03-09-2005
In reply to: kindra11
Mon, 07-31-2006 - 12:55pm

Hi Kindra,

To a lot of people, death and especially suicide are practically taboo topics. Now, the way human nature works is, people are fascinated with the taboo, and the unknown, and especially things you're "Not supposed to think about!"

It may sound strange but I think the more comfortable you get with the idea of death as a natural part of life- the less the thought will fascinate you.

Suicide is a bit different being that it's not natural and not something you want to dwell on, but on the other hand denying the fact that it exists isn't good either..and it sounds like that's what you had tried to do at times. Of course, that backfires and the more you try to stop thinking about something, the more it pops into your head! Honestly, I wouldn't worry about it.

BUT...
If you think it's more serious than that, definately go contact a therapist because we're not experts here and can't give medical advice. So if you think something really serious is going on, seek medical help now.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: kindra11
Tue, 08-01-2006 - 4:58pm

Hi Kindra and welcome to the board! And thanks for sharing a bit of your story with us but mostly, for trusting us enough to ask a question!


I agree with bluerains on this issue. Society frowns on talk of suicide and obviously it's not a "nice" or "comfortable" thing to think about. But the more we try to avoid an issue it seems it rears it's head in one way or another! On the other hand, as blue said it may also be a signal of sorts from your subconscious to "pay attention, something's not right here!"( Especially since you did say you

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