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| Tue, 08-08-2006 - 2:06pm |
Hello. I really need someone to talk to. I've never felt this depressed in my entire life. I'm sure it will sound stupid to anyone who reads this, but I've been having an on-going mysterious health problem for over 15 months and it is making me feel like I'd rather be dead. Forgive me for spending so much time on the symptoms, but I think it's important so that you can understand why I feel so lost.
For the past 15 months I have been suffering from chronic pressure deep behind my eyes. It is a tight, pulling feeling that seems to be directly connected to my eye muscles. Sometimes it goes across my cheek bones, through my right jaw joint and down into the back of my neck on the right side. In addition, I often get an odd sensation (this is very tough to describe) which is kind of a combination of itching, tingling, and tickling in this same region (deep behind my eyes, etc) That sensation gets worse when I look up at the daytime sky while outdoors, but not when I look up at indoor lighting. The worst part of all of this is the way it affects my balance. It makes me feel "off balance" nearly all the time. Often I feel as though I am going to fall to one side...or the room is about to start spinning...although the spinning really doesn't happen. I mostly just feel like a bobble-head doll. I've had some of these symptoms sporadically and mildly for the past 8 years or so. However, in May 2005 all the symptoms suddenly worsened and a few new ones developed. I should mention that I am a 33 year old female. Lifetime non-drinker, non-smoker. Health food and exercise are a huge part of my life.
What makes me feel so lost and desperate is that I am phobic about dizziness and vomiting. I've even seen a therapist about it, but she really didn't help much. I've been to several doctors, a neurologist, and a chiropractor (who I still see weekly). No one seems to think there is anything seriously wrong with me other than anxiety, but I don't agree. I think I could have a brain tumor and I feel like I would rather die now than go through having something like that. I don't have insurance and I'm not wealthy so my options are very limited. I've thought about getting an mri (one doctor said she would order it if I wanted it), but I cannot afford it and honestly, I'm afraid of what they will find. I just don't know what to do. All I do is cry and my entire life is falling apart. Could someone please talk to me?
For the past 15 months I have been suffering from chronic pressure deep behind my eyes. It is a tight, pulling feeling that seems to be directly connected to my eye muscles. Sometimes it goes across my cheek bones, through my right jaw joint and down into the back of my neck on the right side. In addition, I often get an odd sensation (this is very tough to describe) which is kind of a combination of itching, tingling, and tickling in this same region (deep behind my eyes, etc) That sensation gets worse when I look up at the daytime sky while outdoors, but not when I look up at indoor lighting. The worst part of all of this is the way it affects my balance. It makes me feel "off balance" nearly all the time. Often I feel as though I am going to fall to one side...or the room is about to start spinning...although the spinning really doesn't happen. I mostly just feel like a bobble-head doll. I've had some of these symptoms sporadically and mildly for the past 8 years or so. However, in May 2005 all the symptoms suddenly worsened and a few new ones developed. I should mention that I am a 33 year old female. Lifetime non-drinker, non-smoker. Health food and exercise are a huge part of my life.
What makes me feel so lost and desperate is that I am phobic about dizziness and vomiting. I've even seen a therapist about it, but she really didn't help much. I've been to several doctors, a neurologist, and a chiropractor (who I still see weekly). No one seems to think there is anything seriously wrong with me other than anxiety, but I don't agree. I think I could have a brain tumor and I feel like I would rather die now than go through having something like that. I don't have insurance and I'm not wealthy so my options are very limited. I've thought about getting an mri (one doctor said she would order it if I wanted it), but I cannot afford it and honestly, I'm afraid of what they will find. I just don't know what to do. All I do is cry and my entire life is falling apart. Could someone please talk to me?

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Hi Eegads,
I definately think a second opinion is in order...there has to be a medical reason.
Do you have glasses? Are you getting eye strain in any way? Could it be eye allergies? (Do your eyes themselves hurt or look red and dry.)
Does it ever go away, and if so, when? I think you really should go see another doctor. Have you ever tried a holistic doctor, such as acupuncture? I think you should try the MRI just to rule it out...so you can move on to solve the mystery.
It could be something really simple once you find the right doctor.
Having suffered from panic & anxiety for 36 years, I do understand how you feel. I am certain your test results are accurate & your doctors
I am sorry to hear that I think maybe you could try to get a health insurance that covers you for an mri or part of it or a short period one soory i am in the uk and do not know really well how it works
Good luck
Hi and welcome to the board! Sure we will talk to you! Sorry it has taken me some time to respond but I've had a few "computer gremlins" today that are giving me a bit of a problem!
Hey! I have some of those same symptoms, and I was recently dx'ed with MS. Did they test you for that? The nuero??? You might want to ask about it...go to google and research Recurring Remitting Multiple Sclerosis and see what you think.
My illness has been misdx'ed as Fibromyalgia and Rhematoid Arthritis.
I finally got fed up with being so fatigued, swollen, dizzy, off-balance, in pain, you name it, that I went back to my GP. Haven't yet seen the neuro.
Anyway, I just wanted to put that out there.
I'm also Bipolar, so I know all about depression. Hang in there, okay?
I'll be back to check on you.
Love and Hugs,
Keli
I get migraines and I get dizzy so sometimes I have to lie down. That could definately be it! I also have a naseous feeling sometimes, also with the migraine...
If it's migraines, you can treat that.
Hi. Thank you so much for your reply. I had a few really bad days and nights. I yelled and screamed and even threw a few things around the house last night, but then I settled down. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to sleep much. That happens to me sometimes. I occasionally suffer from insomnia.
I saw an eye doctor today. First time I've ever seen one in my whole life. He did a really thorough examination and said that I just need a mild prescription. My new glasses are just for slight problems with seeing at a distance. Otherwise, my vision is 20/20 and the overall health of my eyes is great. He said that the results from 2 of the many tests he performed (peripheral vision test and images of the optic nerve) showed that there are no tumors in that area of my brain. He also said that most people he has seen who suffer from MS usually don't pass the peripheral vision test with flying colors like I did. So although I'm not out of the woods for serious things like tumors and MS, I'm a step closer to being in the clear.
I'm going to try to get the brain mri done soon. I don't know how I will do it, but I would like to try. I'm still really scared, but I'm gonna try to take things one step at a time. I'm also going to look into other types of alternative medicine and relaxation therapy. Thanks again for taking the time to post. It really helped.
Hi. Thank you so much for your reply. I know that anxiety is a major part of my problems. Unfortunately, I feel as though I am caught in a loop. My anxiety stems from the fear I have of becoming dizzy and being sick to my stomach. So whenever I feel off-balance (which is nearly every minute) and/or nauseous, I get very upset. Then the symptoms get worse from the anxiety, then I get more upset...and so on and so on. I would like to try to get that part of the problem under control. Deep breathing seems to help a bit. I've been doing a lot of in through the nose and out through the mouth the past few days. It seems to help momentarily at least.
I had a terrible night last night. I started crying and screaming. I felt like I wanted to die. Then I couldn't sleep. Finally, I settled down enough to get some rest and then I went to an eye doctor. First time I've ever seen one in my whole life. He did a really thorough examination and said that I just need a mild prescription. My new glasses are just for slight problems with seeing at a distance. Otherwise, my vision is 20/20 and the overall health of my eyes is great. He said that the results from 2 of the many tests he performed (peripheral vision test and images of the optic nerve) showed that there are no tumors in that area of my brain. He also said that most people he has seen who suffer from MS usually don't pass the peripheral vision test with flying colors like I did. So although I'm not out of the woods for serious things like tumors and MS, I'm a step closer to being in the clear.
I'm going to try to get the brain mri done soon. I don't know how I will do it, but I would like to try. I'm still really scared, but I'm gonna try to take things one step at a time. I'm also going to look into other types of alternative medicine and relaxation therapy. Thanks again for taking the time to post. It really helped.
Hi. Thank you so much for your reply. I saw an eye doctor today. First time I've ever seen one in my whole life. He did a really thorough examination and said that I just need a mild prescription. My new glasses are just for slight problems with seeing at a distance. Otherwise, my vision is 20/20 and the overall health of my eyes is great. He said that the results from 2 of the many tests he performed (peripheral vision test and images of the optic nerve) showed that there are no tumors in that area of my brain. He also said that most people he has seen who suffer from MS usually don't pass the peripheral vision test with flying colors like I did. So although I'm not out of the woods for serious things like tumors and MS, I'm a step closer to being in the clear.
I'm going to try to get the brain mri done soon. I don't know how I will do it, but I would like to try. I'm still really scared, but I'm gonna try to take things one step at a time. I'm also going to look into other types of alternative medicine and relaxation therapy. Thanks again for taking the time to post. It really helped.
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