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i hate myself
| Sat, 08-12-2006 - 3:26pm |
i cant live with myself anymore.
always hated myself, my body my character, to try and forget i overeat, and ive gained 5kg, (13 lbs) in a month... its all just so complex to explain, but basically my parents discovered some splenda i had hidden and now i just cant face them, i hate myself so much for it. my whole life is a mess and what kept it together was my parents faith in me, now i dont even have that. i always think the furtre will be better, but im tired.
always hated myself, my body my character, to try and forget i overeat, and ive gained 5kg, (13 lbs) in a month... its all just so complex to explain, but basically my parents discovered some splenda i had hidden and now i just cant face them, i hate myself so much for it. my whole life is a mess and what kept it together was my parents faith in me, now i dont even have that. i always think the furtre will be better, but im tired.

Araconda,
I bet a lot of that 13lbs is water weight... don't be too hard on yourself. I used to sneak junk food into my room because I craved it so much and my parents got mad at me too. But now, years later, I learned to eat healthier but it doesn't happen overnight. I still love sugar but I don't have to hide it and I eat it when I want to, and I'm still healthy. Junk food is not so horrible in moderation, I eat dessert every day and my weight is fine... it's all about the big picture and being active.
Just give yourself time and love, and ask for help when you need it... everything will be alright.
Hi Araconda and welcome to the board... I think you will find us a supportive bunch here and I hope you'll stick around and let us get to know you and vice versa!
I'm glad you reached out to us..... However, I sense that there is more here than meets the eye (as there is with most of us--lol--esp. when "talking" to strangers).