cl-onceachild....didn't follow through
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cl-onceachild....didn't follow through
| Sun, 08-13-2006 - 7:25pm |
Lori:
Your message was so encouraging about my vow to begin exercising again. I let myself down:( On Tues. evening, I went to a yoga class on and was going to continue to go to classes all week. I saw my couselor on Mon. but am not sure she's the person I need to be talking to. A friend of mine was coming through this way and ended up coming on Weds. evening. The visit was horrible because I'm feeling so bad about myself. I look terrible because I'm still not eating well, taking care of myself or getting out of my apartment very much. On Tues., Weds., and Thurs. I went to a workshop at the Commerce and Labor Office. It was about strategies to help in my job search. On Fri., I saw my primary care doctor about medication. He wants me to take 300 mg. of Wellbutrin XL and 10 mg. of Prozac but I'm not sure if that's a very compatible combination or not. A second opinion might be a good idea. Later, on Fri., I submitted a cover letter, my resume and references to an agency for whom I previously worked. In reading this over it seems like I accomplished quite a bit. However, I'm going to try to get up early tomorrow morning and attend the spinning class I mentioned before. I have so far to go to get back to the toned shape I was in just over a month ago:( Usually, exercise is what keeps me going, in good shape and allows me to have a positive attitude. I also have an appointment with the dermatologist to find out what is acausing the rash I have all over my body. It's very annoying.
Thank you for trying to encourage me, Lori. I do appreciate it. Just wish I could be encouraged:( My feelings are that I've screwed up badly and slipped backward instead of going forward:(
Lee
Your message was so encouraging about my vow to begin exercising again. I let myself down:( On Tues. evening, I went to a yoga class on and was going to continue to go to classes all week. I saw my couselor on Mon. but am not sure she's the person I need to be talking to. A friend of mine was coming through this way and ended up coming on Weds. evening. The visit was horrible because I'm feeling so bad about myself. I look terrible because I'm still not eating well, taking care of myself or getting out of my apartment very much. On Tues., Weds., and Thurs. I went to a workshop at the Commerce and Labor Office. It was about strategies to help in my job search. On Fri., I saw my primary care doctor about medication. He wants me to take 300 mg. of Wellbutrin XL and 10 mg. of Prozac but I'm not sure if that's a very compatible combination or not. A second opinion might be a good idea. Later, on Fri., I submitted a cover letter, my resume and references to an agency for whom I previously worked. In reading this over it seems like I accomplished quite a bit. However, I'm going to try to get up early tomorrow morning and attend the spinning class I mentioned before. I have so far to go to get back to the toned shape I was in just over a month ago:( Usually, exercise is what keeps me going, in good shape and allows me to have a positive attitude. I also have an appointment with the dermatologist to find out what is acausing the rash I have all over my body. It's very annoying.
Thank you for trying to encourage me, Lori. I do appreciate it. Just wish I could be encouraged:( My feelings are that I've screwed up badly and slipped backward instead of going forward:(
Lee

Hi Lee,
Wow Lee,
It seems like you've been very productive despite your post title. I just wanted to give you some recongition for that.
Thank you for the recognition. I only wish I could believe in myself.
Lee
Thank you again for your wisdom. I just wish I could feel good about one thing I've done. Just when I think I've accomplished something. I look in the mirror and appear to have regressed.
Lee
Hi Lee,
Lee,
There is a great job seekers support board on ivillage. Have you checked it out? Becuase, you will see that you are actually doing great compared to a lot of us.... it is SO hard to find a job these days. You can go there and see that even if people have no other reason to be depressed, job seeking will get you down in this economy...
I go to that board and this one a lot. I think they are a good combination for someone who is job seeking and depressed. This board is great for more personal issues, and that one is good for the job side of it... and both boards have great CLs. (Winking at Lori and Amanda.)
Awwww, Blue, what a sweetie you are! How are you doing these days? I always enjoy reading your insightful responses to others! I hope you are having a great week--but if not, we're here for you good or bad! Hugs, Lori
Lori,
I'm having a bad time, sick and tired of working only ten hours a week and bored to death with too much time and no money. I just emailed my resume for a local job and hope to get a call but the problem is the job was posted Aug. 12 and I JUST now noticed it, so I bet she already has hundreds of resumes and probably won't even read mine...
The reason I took so long to notice it is I forgot to check the site it was on, or more accurately I had lost hope becuase they had not had any jobs for so long. The day I stopped checking it, that was the day they posted this job...
you have to be at the right place at the right time, and I NEVER am and Lori can you believe that even though I send out resumes every single day, I have not had one interview since January, and that was for my ten hour a week job I have now? It seems so hopeless- in reality, not just in my mind.
Edited 8/16/2006 12:24 pm ET by bluerains
Ohhh Blue... I'm sorry the job thing is not going well... I know how badly you want to improve your situation and you are trying SOOOO HARD but seemingly not much is happening. I'm sure you have thought about and considered various reasons why but let's brainstorm a bit okay?
I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Part of it is the area. In the DC area I found three jobs within six months, each one better than the other. (First I worked at the Zoo, then Ann Taylor, and then at the best job I ever had, at the Library of Congress.)
Also my resume has a big gap when I was too depressed to even job hunt, from 2004-Jan 2006. That is bad. But I did nothing, I didn't volunteer or do anthing to put on the resume. I had no motivation during that time. I also did'nt have a car which was part of it, do you remember I had a driving phobia? I finally got a car in June of 2005, and learned to drive. Then I got this part time job six months later, in January.
And the final thing could be, I've worked a lot in libraries and they are thinking that's all I can do. My resume has library, library, library volunteer.... but I mean I can't lie, what can I do about that?