Lori... (trig)

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Lori... (trig)
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Sun, 08-20-2006 - 10:28pm

I have to confess... I posted as frustrationX2.

Last week I found out that Bruce won't see me again. Marsha told me that he had emailed her, and wouldn't agree to seeing me one last time due to my reaction to being told that I'm not able to go to him for therapy anymore.

I am aching yet again... more. Because of that, I am slowly falling apart inside, but keeping it more to myself rather than talking about it, b/c it hurts too much. Instead, I am doing what I am not supposed to do, and that is taking more meds than I should at times. I was taking pretty much a double dose of my Celexa, a bit more, actually. I'm an idiot, I know.

I have an appt with a new therapist on Thursday and a new psych at the end of September. Saw my PCP last week about something and talked to him about me running out of meds before I see the new psych, and he assured me that he would give me an Rx to hold me over.
I don't want to see the new therapist... I don't want anymore therapists in my life. I am terrified of seeing her. I don't want to talk to anyone anymore. :(

Help me...
Vida

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Mon, 08-21-2006 - 8:54am

Hi Vida,


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Mon, 08-21-2006 - 7:38pm

I am sorry that Bruce said no. I hate getting "punished" for an emotional reaction, or at least that's how it would feel to me when something like that happens to me. I know Bruce did not intend to punish you but it might feel that way.

But it's really cool how Marsha went to bat for you and tried to make it work, that shows that you have a true ally in her. She must care to follow through like that and try to make it work to meet Bruce.

Maybe he will compromise, like meeting you if you promise not to get too emotional. (Or whatever he is concerned about.) Maybe if you reassure him that if he feels uncomfortable, he can leave?

But even if it doesn't work out, you will be OK. You are a good person and you'll make it.




Edited 8/21/2006 7:43 pm ET by bluerains