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| Mon, 08-21-2006 - 12:06am |
Hey Everybody,
I wanted to stop in and say that I'm feeling way better than I was last weekend when I posted. I think some of my depression is hormonal and my "happiness quotient" can swing wide both directions without any external things changing. I wanted to thank you guys for reading my rantings and being there when I needed it. I'm sure I'll be in that place again and have no idea when it will hit me, could be tomorrow, could be next month, but I'm glad I have somewhere to come to when things get tough.
Last week I probably would have fallen into a "why me, everything sucks" pity party if I had a day like today but I was able to laugh at my bad luck. I went to lunch with a friend I haven't seen much lately and was glad to have some time alone when two mutual friends I haven't been too happy with lately showed up at the same restaurant and plopped down at our table and proceeded to dominate all the conversation and kind of put a damper on the great time we were having, then I got stung by a bee while we were sitting there!
Went home and took my dog to the park, he took off chasing another dog and I had to chase him down and caught him just before he ran into this deep sewer well thing (scared the **** out of me and the other guy too, my little guy is tiny and I've always been scared of that well thing) and I broke my shoe chasing him and had to walk home from the park with one shoe while carrying my little stubborn one who decided he was NOT going to walk (he didn't want to go home yet).
And I still managed to maintain a good attitude. Its funny how these little trivial things would have upset me so much last week. The scary thing is that I know the depression and inability to take things in stride will be back.
Even if I'm feeling good for a while I will still be checking in. I want to hear the update on your job search Bluerains! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. Keep in mind it's just a job, not a permanent decision that you can't change if you want/need to and you might just find you made the right decision and love it! I HATE it when people tell me to just keep a positive attitude grrrr! so I won't tell you that, I'm sure you've heard it plenty and hate it too. Just try not to let the negative meanies distract you. That's what I'm going to be working on.

Hey there,
Thank god Jimmy (I think that is his name) is OK! What kind of dog is he? I have been thinking of getting a small dog if I get to the point where I can take care of him well enough. I will post an update on my interviews later this week. Thanks for asking!
And it's great that you did deal with the stressful day so well.
Jimmy is a chihuahua.
I definitely think a dog is great. But waiting until the time is right is also recommended. The unconditional love thing is amazing and its nice to always have someone to talk to, even if they don't know what you are saying (which is often for the better). Just having someone REALLY happy to see you every single time you walk in the door is worth all the work. And believe me, they are a lot of work. Especially if you have a super energetic one like mine. He's not a cuddler at all, which would have been nice but you have little time to dwell on your own problems when your are working on solving theirs. I highly recommend a lazy dog if you can find one - LOL! They are also a big financial drain especially when they are puppies and need all those baby shots and vet visits. I've gone from buying cute five to seven dollar chew toys and found that he is pretty happy with ice-cubes and empty 20 oz plastic coke bottles!
The downside, which is why timing can be important is that if you are having a problem coping with all the little details you have to take care of in your life then adding a whole bunch of others can add to your stress. Thank goodness my parents love Jimmy so much and he loves them and they occasionally take him for the weekend. Of course that can create its own problems. It always takes him a couple of days after he gets back to realize that no matter how much he turns his nose up at his regular food that I am NOT getting up in the morning and cooking him oatmeal for breakfast just because Grandma does! He just looks at me like "What? No topping?"
Oooooo! Chihuauas are so cute! Now I'm even more glad that he was saved from the dangerous well.
Right now our apartment doesn't allow pets but I also think I'm not yet ready for the responsibility. It's something I really look forward to- it's nice to have something to look forward to.
I do want a small, lazy dog- but do they exist? :)