just a little holiday update

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Registered: 07-12-2006
just a little holiday update
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Mon, 08-21-2006 - 5:04pm
Hi everyone! This is Rosaura! Well, I am still in greece on holiday and finally I came across a computer I can use so I thought I'd post a small update. So, the holiday has been eventful to say the least. Some good things happened, then some bad ones... Bad news is that two of the girls on board were an absolute nightmare. One was simply too posh for life aboard a boat (you know, afraid of everything etc) and the other one acted like she was a queen and the rest of us her servants, she would pay for nothing and complain the whole time getting on everyone's nerves. Now for the good news, after two years (yup, this milestone seems to be haunting me on every possible level) I got reunited with one of my best friends ever. Initially it was three of us, growing up together, doing everything together etc, and then, a few months before my life collapsed, the two girls fell out and I was forced by the girl I met again now (lets call her Nellie) to take sides. She was in that case wrong and although I did not want to participate in the fight I was honest about what I thought. Since this day the three of us never got together again, which I think is really sad. I mean sure, Nellie was wrong but cutting all contact with her was a bit drastic (it was really the other girl's decision and my desire to keep out of their fight forced me to not answer Nellie on this subject, hence losing contact altogether))... Now that we met again, and after all these sad events in my life (she has no idea) it all came back to me! Why I loved her in the first place. We didn't really talk about the big fight over two years ago but we reconnected. I am happy about that but also kind of sad because a) not many things got resolved and b) because the realisation that things are just not the same hit me like a brick wall. I sure would have loved to have had her on my corner while my life was falling apart. She made a lot of mistakes but she was a good friend and I am so sad that things went so bad with our little group. Anyway, that is just me being a bit emotional! Greece is wonderful and now that the queen is gone I will have the time I need to reconnect with my friend properly, and I missed her very much. It will just be the two of us for the rest of the holiday although I am not sure how much I should share with her.
Anyway, I am getting carried away here :-) All I wanted to say is that I am hanging in there and that while I have been away I have been thinking of all the wonderful people I met on these boards and had to let you know how I was doing. I will be staying on until the end of the month and then maybe I can face reality and do something about it!
So I hope you ladies are keeping safe and doing alright! I have been thinking about you loads (esp blue and lori!!!!!) I see you all as very special friends!!!! I guess this holiday was a lot more stressful than I wanted it to be (more details when I have the luxury of time) but at least I am keeping busy and far away from bad thoughts!!!!! I hope to be able to keep posting soon! I missed you guys!
All my love
Rosaura
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Mon, 08-21-2006 - 7:07pm

Heyyy Rosaura! How good to get an update from you! I've thought about you also and wondered how things were going on your holiday. Like life, both good and bad went along with you but over all it sounds like you are enjoying your time away which is good!


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Mon, 08-21-2006 - 7:16pm

Hi Rosaura!

I've been thinking of you lately and wondering how you are doing in Greece. Thanks for sending us a "postcard"! I'm so glad you met your friend again and are reconnecting! It sounds so exotic and adventurous to be in Greece, I'm glad you are living a dream like that. I can't wait to hear more when you get back.

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Tue, 08-22-2006 - 5:32am
Hi Lori!!!! Hi Blue!!!!!! It is so great to hear from both of you. I consider you both my friends as you have been there when I badly needed someone. I am still on line but will be driving back in an hour or so. I have so much to talk about, it will take a very long mail probably :-)but just to answer some, it is extremely hot at the time around here. the landscape is just amazing and all the beaches we have been to are super clean with crystal waters. The food is gorgeous. I have gained 3 kilos (which is not a bad thing considering I had lost a lot of weight during my latest crisis - I look healthier)It is just so pure and healthy (grilled fish, calamari olive oil, no wonder these people live longer)as for the culture, I believe it is quite similar to the place I live in (the reality I was talking about) but maybe I need a whole different thread to give more interesting insight on the culture. I'll do that once back.
Anyway, you are right Lori, this is exactly the situation with Nellie. We have been doing some serious reconnecting the past two weeks, even though we hardly had any privacy as I was here with a different group of people, and we are back to the point of hugging and joking around like before. The serious issues though we have left well alone. She only knows what happened with my x boyfriend (not Peter, the one I was with when everything happened) but she knows nothing more (attempts, rape, job situation)I just haven't felt comfortable sharing any of this with her. It is all too heavy and we are on holiday. The issue of the misunderstanding did come up one night and her version of the story I am able to see from her perspective which I didn't in the past. Guess the past few years have tought me that there are a lot worse things someone can do to you than what she did. She apologized for what she had done to me personally (which seems too trivial now anyway)and promised to never force me take sides again. Still a lot needs to be resolved and I don't know if it can get resolved in such short time. I am sure we will be in touch as we both missed each other very much. The thing that worries me is what will happen with the other girl but right now I don't have to think about that. I only wish there was a way to get things back together. As you know I am terribly lonely where I live and since year 2004 everything is different and seeing this girl out of the blue again just reminded me of that. I know things will never be the same but I am glad we met again and we both feel the same way about each other.
Gee, I got carried away! Sorry for the long mail guys, Will be back in September and hope that everyone is keeping safe and happy until then
Love
Rosaura
PS Blue I have noticed you have been a little down lately. I am sorry things are not working out for you the way you would like them to. You are in my thoughts and I hope things will start to look up for you soon!
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Tue, 08-22-2006 - 9:21am

Hi Rosaura,


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Tue, 08-22-2006 - 10:52am

The food sounds really good. I bet it must be so gorgeous and it just has to be uplifting to be in such a beautiful place.

Thanks for noticing that I've been down lately, you are right but that's life sometimes and it actually helps me a lot to think of you in Greece in the sun! Have a wonderful time and I hope you don't have to end your vacation just yet.

I'm also glad you and Nellie are getting close again. Friendship is complicated but sometimes it can be strong even when it seems like it's not!

Have fun today and enjoy every minute!