Why can't I stop these thoughts??? TRIGs

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Registered: 01-23-2006
Why can't I stop these thoughts??? TRIGs
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Tue, 08-22-2006 - 9:17am

Hi Everyone,
I haven't been here in a while...I used to post under another name (faithhopelove), but forgot my password. I admitted myself to the hospital at the end of May, and stayed for 10 days. I'm so scared I'm heading down that road again! I can't keep these suicidal thoughts out of my head. I keep thinking about how I would do it, but I know I can't! I have 5 kids who need me! I just hate feeling like this. Anyone else ever have feelings like these?

~Renee~

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Registered: 03-09-2005
Tue, 08-22-2006 - 10:54am
Yes I do. Stopping thoughs is really hard. Sometimes it's enough that you don't act on them. Hi Renee, it's good to see you again and I'm glad you're around.
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Tue, 08-22-2006 - 11:09am

Hi Renee, honey! Yes, I know exactly how you feel...EXACTLY! The BP makes us think them, a lot of times...then stress...depression...lotsa stuff. Just wanted you to know I was here, and I totally get it.

Love and Hugs,

Keli

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Registered: 08-12-2006
Tue, 08-22-2006 - 11:03pm

I totally understand your thoughts and have been there many times myself. You're not alone in your thinking. It's weird and scary and confusing when they are there, I know, but you aren't acting on them and that is really important.

Your posting here means you are still wanting to move in a more positive direction. That's a good thing to remember and focus on. There are a lot of people here who are better at giving advice than me, so I'll just say that its good you are here and keep reaching out and connecting with people. You don't have to handle this all on your own.

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Wed, 08-23-2006 - 9:39am

Hi Renee,


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Wed, 08-23-2006 - 2:44pm

Thanks to all for your replies! Lori, I did learn some tools of coping when in the hospital, but nothing to stop suicidal thoughts. I actually wasn't having them before...I just bascially wanted to sleep all the time. I could no longer function. I'm still feeling the same way, but have an appointment with my tdoc tomorrow. I also plan on calling my pdoc today. Thanks again to all!!

Hugs,
Renee