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| Tue, 09-05-2006 - 8:51am |
Hello ya all! I am back from my holiday and thought I'd drop by and see how everyone is doing? I have been thinking a lot about you guys. Anyway, my holiday was good. I already mentioned reconnecting with my friend Nellie (highlight of the holiday) and the places we visited were simply amazing, the food delicious and the weather hot hot hot. On the other hand, we had a series of mishaps (we were even close to a major fire) and silly things going wrong, plus I am back to the place I so desperately don't want to be in so I am having mixed emotions today. I guess what gets me down a little is the realization that everything has changed and it will never ever be the same as it was two years ago. I have changed, people around me have changed... Nellie has not been part of my life for so long that now she is missing out on very important things that happened to me, things I could not bring myself to telling her. I am sure we will keep in touch and that we will rebuild the friendship slowly but something is missing. We don't live in the same country (none of the people I care about other than my parents live in this country - and that is a whole different story) and I am back to the same emptiness of an every day life I hate as before. The really frustrating thing is that I could have a social life here. It is me who is resisting it. The vast majority of the people I meet here are everything I don't want a friend to be. This place really does not agree with me. I was totally fine on holiday as I am fine every time I go somewhere else.... Fingers crossed I will be able to escape by new years...Oh well, a little bit of venting right there. Guess it is the holiday blues or something! Anyway, I will be writing soon, as soon as I figure out what is worth sharing that is!
Take care all of you, Lori, Blue! I am thinking about you guys!!!!!
Love
Rosaura
Take care all of you, Lori, Blue! I am thinking about you guys!!!!!
Love
Rosaura

Hi Rosaura,
Anyway, I am looking forward to more great conversations with you and the rest of the ladies. It is so important just to have someone understand!
So, take care of yourself, I'll be fine eventually. It is the holiday blues syndrome...
Love and hugs!!!!!
Rosaura
Welcome back Rosaura!
I'm glad you enjoyed your vacation and sorry to hear that
I totally understand the feeling. I too felt the same way on my vacation these last three weeks. I was almost Euphoric being in a different province and meeting a friend and then returing to my province (although not my city) and helping out at the Ottawa folk festival. As soon as I was on the bus home though I started stressing out over my home life, and when I got home it got worse and I landed in a deep pit of depression and also got very