Remind me again why I am alive

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Remind me again why I am alive
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Wed, 09-06-2006 - 1:42pm
I wish it would all end...
I have been dealing with migraines. Just got out of the hospital for migraines and fainting. They can't find anything wrong with me. and I am at my wits end I just want it all to end.
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Tue, 09-12-2006 - 5:25pm
actually the h.r. department is her right hand man and there is no way i can talk to either one of them.
As for now I am just miserable and i guess that is the way it will be until i find some thing new.
Day has not been a good day. First it is raining out and gloomy. The boss wanted me to plan a luncheon for 9-14 . I said to her remember i might no be here that day do to 3 days of medical tests that i am having done. she said in a huff well order the food and have Jane take care of setting it up.
Then she sent me out to buy 3 coffee makers (Bunn) i came back with the black one and of course she was not happy with that color.


Edited 9/12/2006 5:29 pm ET by sfarlow
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Wed, 09-13-2006 - 6:43am
Perhaps you could go to someone higher than your HR department. It sounds like nothing you can do will please your boss. I ended up quitting because of a similar situation (not being able to please you boss. Is there another department to where you can transfer?
 
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Wed, 09-13-2006 - 3:44pm

Sorry I missed your post initially, it must have been on the second page and I only got to the first page of posts.


I'm sorry to hear of the physical pain you are having. I can definately relate, I'm going through some serious medical issues right now myself.


I'm also sorry to hear that you have such a tough boss. Do you like the work you're in otherwise? What kind of positions are available on the market right now? I think if you could find one that could be more fulfilling it would definately help lift your spirits and sense of self-worth. It may mean taking a pay cut, but as you said money doesn't buy happiness. So it comes down to which is more important, your wellbeing or money.


Stay safe.

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Amanda

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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 9:33am
Today I am very very sad. I wish I were not here. I am so miserable. I made an appointment with the doctor for 9-26 to talk to her. Why does life have to be so hard?
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Thu, 09-28-2006 - 5:12pm
Well I saw the Dr. and we upped my Paxil and I see her again next week.
In some of my other post I have mention that part of what is going on is my boss. She is so mean to me and it is not only mean other co workers are treated the same.
So even though the pay is good I have decided to hunt for a another job. I am hyper about the move but I have no other choice. I dont want to go to work and walk on egg shells fearing about what she will yell about next.
I need some encouragment....
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Thu, 09-28-2006 - 8:04pm
That's good that you can take the positive step of looking forward to a better job situation. I think that's partly what helped me feel better is that I did the same thing and though I didn't get the job and didn't really think I would, just saying positive things about myself in the application and in the interview, made me feel better about myself! Wow! I sounded so ... accomplished!! It's kind of stupid but it seemed to work for me!!!!
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Fri, 09-29-2006 - 11:41am
Congrats on making what must have been a very difficult decision to begin job-hunting!! I know it will be stressful making the transition but I truly believe once it's done you will be SOOOO happy you took that leap of faith! Hugs, Lori
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Thu, 10-12-2006 - 11:44pm
So much for feeling good and moving on in the right direction. I am right back to where I was. Sad,lonely, hopeless, thinking bad thoughts, wanting to ....
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Fri, 10-13-2006 - 3:17pm

Hi there,


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Tue, 10-31-2006 - 11:54am

Just needed to share my thoughts. I am not doing well. I see my family doctor next week and I hope she can help me. How ever I am constantly thinking about my horrible job. I can seem to turn my brain off. When I am not at work it haunts me constantly.
I have been looking for another job but have found nothing.

I cant concentrate I have a hard time staying focused on a task. I am even afraid to drive a car because I can't focus on getting from point A to point B. I find myself walking aimlessly around when cleaning house or any other task.
Gosh I want it all to end.