Remind me again why I am alive

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Registered: 08-31-2006
Remind me again why I am alive
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Wed, 09-06-2006 - 1:42pm
I wish it would all end...
I have been dealing with migraines. Just got out of the hospital for migraines and fainting. They can't find anything wrong with me. and I am at my wits end I just want it all to end.

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Registered: 10-15-2006
Tue, 10-31-2006 - 3:55pm

someone remind me the same thing cause honey i'm right behind you. trying to think of reasons why i want to live. hmm halloween would be a good night

libby

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Registered: 08-31-2006
Tue, 10-31-2006 - 4:23pm
I sent you an email
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Registered: 08-31-2006
Mon, 11-27-2006 - 8:54am

Well the holiday is over and I am left to face my problems head on. Being busy these past few days kept my mind off of the real issue.

I was approved for FLMA leave and do not have to go back to work till Feb 2007

I went to see the physc doctor who said I was severely depressed and also have panic with agroaphobia. I was in IOP - intense out patient- therapy for the past two weeks. The therapist also thinks I have ADHD- which is something I had thought too.
Dr put me on a higher Paxil dose and on Klonipin. I sleep good now.

I can't decide weather to quit my job with is causing my stress-see earlier post to this tread- or to stay. The dr. said to stay. He wants me to take the 12 weeks to work on my issues.

Sat night DH & I went to the book store and after our visit I lost it. I wanted life to end. I am just spinning out of control.

I really don't want to have to deal with all this.

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Registered: 08-31-2006
Mon, 01-01-2007 - 4:55pm
Well here we go again. In one short month I am suppose to go back to work. Gosh I do not want to face this fact nor life. The holidays have passed and they won't miss me. They will go on just as I did when Mom died. I just have to find the right time.
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Mon, 01-01-2007 - 6:02pm

Hey there,


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Registered: 08-31-2006
Tue, 01-02-2007 - 5:57pm

Hi Lori

I made it though today. I had a very strong, reliable person to lean on today. You see my sister needed someone to be at her house, while she was at work, to let the cable man in to install some gizmo on her new T.V.
Anyway my reliable person who kept me going today was none other than my sister 4 legged cat. I tried to read, he wanted me to pet him. I got on the computer and meowed at me-- pay attention to me-- I would go to the bathroom he followed along too see what I was up to. I ate lunch and shared with him. It was like having a kid under my feet.

None the less I did get to read a bit today about self esteem.

Gotta run and make dinner..

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Tue, 01-02-2007 - 7:41pm

Hey Shelly,


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