Up dat - awful tiem for me

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Registered: 09-06-2006
Up dat - awful tiem for me
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Thu, 09-14-2006 - 1:01pm

I didn't know how to cocpe with all my feeling I want to bury them to have then go awya, I didn't know what else to do, all I couldn think to do is drinkm. It'ds helpong with the pain, Am I a bad person for doing dthis?? it's helpnng em forget all that;s happened, I hpe you guys do['t hate me. i night hav ptded alrdy i dondt jnow wht I did

want ot know somethin All I ever wanted is to be lvoed....I did everthing I couldd to keep him happy, why wuld he do all, awful things to em, and hrt me. i don't thin; I can go on..

I want to emd it all I don't wantr to continue,

He tells me I'm trashg that no-one wil love em, makes me feel that wy, emot;onally and physica;;y. Why would anyone love me, anymoree.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Thu, 09-14-2006 - 2:02pm

Hi there,


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Registered: 09-12-2006
Thu, 09-14-2006 - 3:02pm
I am so sorry you are going through such a really bad time. Gentle hugs to you (((Hugs)))
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Registered: 09-06-2006
Thu, 09-14-2006 - 3:16pm

Uggh!!!! Now I really want to die!!! I'm made a complete fool of myself!!! Nothing seems to be going right. Sorry, about the post, I guess I've just had to much to drink, and didn't pre-view what I wrote. My fingers/brain aren't quite with it.

I finally went to a clinic and got my arm bandaged up, it's got a hairline fracture and the swelling on my lip is going away. I didn't get an internal exam because I was too scared/petrified. They would know what happened. I can't face thta yet. I'm still spotting, but I can walk better now.

Calling the abuse hot line is too terrifying. I could barely write/say the words. I don't believe it's happening to me. It's easier for me to stay drunk, because it makes the pain and everything go away.... I hope you understand

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Thu, 09-14-2006 - 6:07pm

Hey there,


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