not doing good.. warning trigs
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not doing good.. warning trigs
| Mon, 09-18-2006 - 1:19pm |
am not doing well at all, this bipolar stuff is really getting to me I cant even put on a happy face anymore, all I think about it harming myself and wanting to do it, I was so close the last time and if only they didnt find me I wouldnt be where I am now. have been totally depressed now since Sat. and sick of being a mom and wanting to get away from my kids, I know I am a horrible mother I am trying to put them back into public school bc I am sick of being around them 24/7. this isnt helping me at all
mary

Hi Mary,
Mary,
Sending your kids back to school is NOT a wrong thing to do, do not feel guilty about it. You have done such good work with them... you haven't failed. You are doing what is good for you at this time, and it will be a good thing for your kids as well. Think of it as making time for you to take care of YOU.
I am not bipolar... but I do know very well the feeling of wanting to get away from the children. I have PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder)... it's like PMS multiplied by a million. Every month during my PMDD phase is a horrid time for me.
Please make sure you call someone when you feel like you will self-harm. I've been there, done that... and I am learning to fight those urges more and more as time goes on.
HUGS...
V