Hi surface,,,,your post portrays someone who is overwhelmed and unsupported with all that is going on. You said thank you for letting you "get it out,even though it didn't help",,,,,please keep coming and posting all your thoughts and feelings because in time it will actually help you feel better putting it down and getting responses from people who care. You mentioned not having insurance coverage for counselling. May I make a suggestion that you call around and see which places offer a 'sliding paying scale' ,,,, that means a place that will base your income on what you will pay. I don't know how it works in the States but here in Ontario if one goes to see a psychiatrist,,,which is a Doctor we don't have to pay because you are seeing a Medical Doctor. Please keep looking for someone you can escape to and vent your frustrations and pains to that will hopefully offer you support and suggestions. I've personally been through a terribly cruel year and without the help of my now psych doctor I honestly don't know where I would be,,,,literally ! You mentioned having a Sister,,,,,are you close with her,,,,,,can she help you in anyway at all,,,,,even if it is just having a place to 'escape' to when you feel the ceiling is crashing in around you ? I wanted to respond to your post so you would know there are people 'out there' who actually 'do' care when someone is hurting as you are (because here the people honestly know what 'hurting' is) Please know I care okay,,,,,Hugs,,,,Abby
Hi surface and welcome to the board--although I wish you weren't feeling so badly as to need it! I think you will find this a safe supportive place to be and so I hope you'll stay and "hang out" with us!
I may be way off base (and I've been wrong before so I can take it--lol!) but you sound really frustrated, angry and overwhelmed! I don't blame you--it seems that you have a lot to be frustrated and angry about. But suicide isn't the answer. Truly, it's not!
Please know I care okay,,,,,Hugs,,,,Abby
Hi surface and welcome to the board--although I wish you weren't feeling so badly as to need it! I think you will find this a safe supportive place to be and so I hope you'll stay and "hang out" with us!
I may be way off base (and I've been wrong before so I can take it--lol!) but you sound really frustrated, angry and overwhelmed! I don't blame you--it seems that you have a lot to be frustrated and angry about. But suicide isn't the answer. Truly, it's not!