Who should I talk to?

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Registered: 02-14-2006
Who should I talk to?
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Fri, 10-20-2006 - 3:03pm

Hi folks, as you might guess I've been feeling all mixed up and more than a little suicidal lately. I think I've finally realized that I need to talk to someone. I've always wanted to, but I held back because I didn't want to scare or hurt anyone. But now I guess I don't care any more, I just need to talk. I've known a couple of people that were 'successful' at suicide and I remember thinking over and over that I wished I had been able to help them. And I didn't even really know them that well, we were just acquaintances.

Previously, I have tried to only speak with therapists because they're accustomed to these kinds of thoughts. But I've even had trouble being totally honest with them about how I feel. I think that's mostly because if I tell them I feel suicidal, they'll turn me in to a mental health facility and I absolutely cannot afford to go to one.

Anyway, I haven't felt like I could really talk to therapists and I know if I talk with my Mom, it will scare her and she might panic. Outside of her, I don't feel like anyone else understands me well enough to handle that kind of information. My friends have their own lives and stuff and I guess part of me feels like I should be able to handle these problems since I'm a grown adult. Plus, I do NOT want to end up in a situation where someone thinks I'm just being overdramatic or trying to get attention or something. I'm not sure what proportion of people think that way.

Do you guys have any advice?




Edited 10/20/2006 3:32 pm ET by littlestroman
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Registered: 08-02-2005
Fri, 10-20-2006 - 4:24pm

Just because you have suicidal thoughts doesn't mean that you are going to do it. Stress that to your therapist. They won't necessarily admit you, but may be able to help you find some coping mechanisms. There are also SU crisis lines and I'm sure there is one in your area. See the resources at the top of the page.


And of course you are free to talk here.

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Amanda

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sat, 10-21-2006 - 11:28am

Hi there and welcome to the board--though I'm sorry you are feeling badly enough to need it I'm glad it's here for those that do!


First impressions from your post: You are intelligent and despite the amount of pain you are in you seem to have good control of your impulses rather than being impulsive because if you were overly impulsive you'd likely not have posted but just acted out your pain in other not so healthy ways. You also seem to have a lot of inner strength and you are caring and thoughtful. You evaluated

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