Hanging On . . .

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Registered: 11-26-2006
Hanging On . . .
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Sun, 11-26-2006 - 12:12pm

Hi All -

I am new here. Back in '02, I struggled with anxiety and with the help of a therapist worked my way out of that. I felt it coming on again and returned to the same therapist. This time, I cannot seem to convey to her how bad things seem to me, how hopeless. Things have progressed to a deep depression. I have made an appointment with a new therapist and see her on Wednesday.

Wednesday seems very far away and I am plagued by despair. I worry that the new therapist won't be able to help me either. Last night, I went so far as to e-mail the Samaritans. Things are that bad. I spent yesterday in tears, and today is not going much better. I can't seem to make myself go through the motions.

Just wanted to say hi and hope that I can make it to Wed. w/some help here and at the depression support board.

-Maggie

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sun, 11-26-2006 - 5:28pm

Hi Maggie and welcome to the board! I am glad you found us and I hope you will hang out with us here and let us get to know you and vice versa!


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Registered: 11-22-2005
Sun, 11-26-2006 - 6:39pm

Hi Maggie,

Sometimes crying is the best you can do so let the tears flow. Be sure to tell your therapist on Wednesday that you need help in knowing what to do in those times when you feel overwhelmed.

Even though for the most part I can honor it as a process to healing, there are times when my level of grief and hopelessness and helplessness scare me. I do know that I am not hopeless and I am not helpless and that action is crucial to moving forward. If we spend too much time and energy in those deep, dark ugly places it's harder to get out. I do uplifting reading, EFT (tapping), journaling, long hot baths. Take some time to figure out what makes you feel good and work towards implementing more of that in your life. Sometimes it's hard to see it but I promise you it's there.

Have you considered anti-depressents to take the edge off?

Peace and love!

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Registered: 03-09-2005
Mon, 11-27-2006 - 7:40pm

Hi, Angel.

"This time, I cannot seem to convey to her how bad things seem to me, how hopeless."

I have felt that way too, a lot. It seems like most people either don't know what to say that will actually help. And that's very frusterating when you try so hard to reach out and tell someone in the first place how bad you feel, and they don't even understand.

But someone out there will understand. I hope the Samaritans help. I'd email them too if I had thought of it.

Twice I actually called a suicide hotline and felt the same way- that they did not really help or understand. I wish communication and listening skills were taught in school as much as they teach math, science, etc. Becuase I really think that most people are horrible at listening and communicating. But all you need is one person who gets it... and you'll find them, just keep trying.

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Registered: 11-26-2006
Mon, 11-27-2006 - 8:56pm

I want to thank everyone for taking the time to respond to my message. I feel a bit better today and am a day closer to my appointment with the new therapist. I will update following that.

Thanks again for the much needed support!

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Registered: 11-26-2006
Mon, 11-27-2006 - 9:07pm
Thanks for your reply - - I am hoping that my new therapist will be open to prescribing an anti-depressant to take the edge off. Cross your fingers for me . . .
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Registered: 11-22-2005
Mon, 11-27-2006 - 9:44pm
I'm sending you angels and prayers. :)