Sunday Blues

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Registered: 08-31-2006
Sunday Blues
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Sun, 12-10-2006 - 4:57pm
Here it is Sunday and evening is approaching. I am getting the blues and I keep having to deal with those horrible thoughts entering my head. I am trying to get myself out of the rut. It was 53 degrees today and we put up some X-mas decorations outside. We managed to put the tree up inside. It is a prelit tree so at least I don't have to worry about stinging the lights.
There are no decorations on the tree yet. It looks nice with the clear lights. DH said it would be a progressive decorating project. Made another day I will feel like putting the rest of the stuff on the tree.
I just see no future in sight. I don't want to deal with this problem. I am not a fighter. I am a loser.

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Registered: 12-11-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Sun, 12-24-2006 - 7:04pm
Hello and Merry X-mas!! Am feeling pretty up-beat tonight - my son is out from Ca. and the other one is coming out on the ninth from Colorado-Thank God this stressfull time of the year is just about over!! I hope and pray for all of us that our mental health will be better in 2007 Still every morning can be a struggle at times- have agreat holiday and write when you can-thank you for your support!!Michelle from NY
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In reply to: sfarlow
Sun, 12-24-2006 - 10:16pm

Hey Michelle,


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In reply to: sfarlow
Tue, 12-26-2006 - 11:06am

Michelle,


Sooooo good to hear that you are/were feeling up. Did that feeling continue? Where you able to fight the holiday stresses? What did you do with you friends and family?

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Amanda

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Registered: 08-31-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Wed, 12-27-2006 - 9:57am

Michelle
With the crazy-busy holiday I just got a chance to read your postings. You and I do have a lot in common.
1. Not wanting to celebrate the holiday
2. Both down in the dumps
3. You clean houses - I would like to clean houses for a living but have been told I am over qualified, (which was told to me by a cleaning company)!
Everyone here is very supportive, caring, and a true friend. So please continue to let us know how you are doing.
Hope you continue to feel better each day.
Remember taking baby steps to recovery is the best. Don't try to leap otherwise you may fall.

TTYL
Shell

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Registered: 12-11-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Sat, 12-30-2006 - 8:28am
Hello and happy pre-new year - my son was out from Cal. for x-mas and it turned out better than I had expected. I was really nervous about seeing him, and felt alot of shame which was unwarranted- because of the hospitalization and stuff, and because right now I'm not bringing in alot of money-he's studying to be a lawyer. Nothing like doling a little comparing!!!It's so silly---
I'm overqualified for cleaning houses too, but I work independently, not with a company...I live in a resort area where everyone has, or seems to have alot of money-
How was your holiday- are you on any meds?-right now i suspect I'm being overmedicated---talk soon-Michelle
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Registered: 12-11-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Sat, 12-30-2006 - 8:40am
Hi Amanda
My emotions go up and down quite a bit-lots of times I feel very high, then very low- but the holidays turned out good-my son was out from Cal. with his partner and we spent alot of time with them- we live in an extremely small apt. so all of our activities took place outside of it-we went to new York City with them and have x-mas lunch in a restaurant. Everything turned out all right though-
I'm glad the new year is coming up- Hopefully it will better than 2006-how were your holidays-Michelle
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Registered: 08-31-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Sat, 12-30-2006 - 9:58am

Hi Michelle what part of New York do you live? If you would rather not say that is fine. I have up and down days and I too feel over medicated. I take Klonopin at night to help me sleep and by morning I still feel groggy. The grogginess occurs if I need to take more than one pill.
So talk to the Pdoc and he can adjust your doseage.
Going to New York city for X-mas must have been a nice break for you. I have been there for New Years in 1995 - I had a friend who lived there. Seeing the lights, decorations ect. had to help turn your attention away from what we are feeling.
We both live in an area vunerable to heavy snowfalls and bitter temps so we should be thankful that we don't have to deal with that this year. I am enjoying the mild temps and sunshine.

I am still a bit down but vow not to let it get me down!

Have a safe New Years if I don't get a chance to write later :)

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Registered: 12-11-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Sat, 12-30-2006 - 6:05pm
Hi Sunday Blues--
Had to write and tell you how many medications I'm taking - 5 of them--can you believe it? I'm definitely cutting them down myself, with or without the shrinks-I just had my lithium dosage increased, too---much too much. I see another shrink in two tuesdays and am getting this whole thing straightened out- I think this is what happens when you've spent a small stint on a mental ward for depression, which I did-just 5 days.
I live on Long Island-------Have a happy--Michelle
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Registered: 12-11-2006
In reply to: sfarlow
Tue, 03-06-2007 - 9:27am
how are you - Did you decide what to do about your Masters???Hows your depression doing?

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