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| Sun, 12-10-2006 - 6:43pm |
This summer my son came home from Grad School suffering from depression>He was suicidal so he was admitted to a psych. hospital and a day hospital. Several things happened at Grad School that hurt hime very badly.He now takes Cymbalta and works three days a week but lives at home. The psychiatrist and "T" I see think that he is no longer suicidal.He has seen a counselor in the past but refuses to see one now. Although he still talks about suicide he acts almost like it is a joke; he seems to use it to get back at us.He has made no attempt at suicide.He says he wants my husband and I to give hime permission to commit suicide or to help him(which he knows we will not do). He keeps saying that he will commit suicide, but not now-somewhere later in the future. Sometimes I think he does this to make us feel guilty and because he is angry with us.He blames me for everything that has happened in his life especially since I have been sick so often physically and emotionally and that we did not teach him to be sociable.He is very disrespectful, angry, refuses to do anything around the house and is demanding. Because he is suicdal and depressed I do not know how much I should push him. Some people think that I should make him leave our home.
I am constantly fearful.I know if something happens to hime I would not be able to live. I think that maybe if I die ,he would not.I have evenb thought of killing him and myself since we are both so unhappy.
I am thinking of ways to hurt myself. Three weeks ago I took an overdoe of Tylenol.I was in the main hospital for two days and in the psych. ward for five, My "T actually called 911 for me.
I do not know what to do.I usually look forward to the holidays, but this year I am so depressed and afraid.
I have a very good "T" who is really helpful.When I was in the hospital the psych .doc there change my meds and I do not think I am doing well on them .Thanks for lustening.carey
I am constantly fearful.I know if something happens to hime I would not be able to live. I think that maybe if I die ,he would not.I have evenb thought of killing him and myself since we are both so unhappy.
I am thinking of ways to hurt myself. Three weeks ago I took an overdoe of Tylenol.I was in the main hospital for two days and in the psych. ward for five, My "T actually called 911 for me.
I do not know what to do.I usually look forward to the holidays, but this year I am so depressed and afraid.
I have a very good "T" who is really helpful.When I was in the hospital the psych .doc there change my meds and I do not think I am doing well on them .Thanks for lustening.carey

You wrote,
"I think that maybe if I die ,he would not.I have evenb thought of killing him and myself since we are both so unhappy."
Please ask for help, and don't wait until something drastic happens. Get out of that situation immediately. One of you has to move out even if it's into a hospital.
Edited 12/10/2006 9:06 pm ET by bluerains
Sorry to hear how you and ds are doing. It does sound like he needs counselling badly, but I don't think there is anything you can do to force him to go. I do know that many people will make it to that point themselves but I'm sorry to say it may take reaching a new low before that will happen. I personally don't think you should make him leave your house, but I don't agree with the way he treats you.
Know that your dying would not solve anything, nor would his.
I'm glad you made it to the hospital when you had the tylenol OD. I'm glad you have a great T to help you. I'm sorry you don't think the meds are working. I know how you feel. They changed my meds in the hospital and I'm still not feeling much better (but a little and if you've felt even the slightest improvement hold on to that no matter how little that may be).
Hang in there. Know that we care for you.
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