i want to end it today

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i want to end it today
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Fri, 12-15-2006 - 11:51am
i really want to end it..im thinking of ways, pros and cons..i am a burden to this universe...i have nothin to live for..i cnt make myself happy...other people have that contol and i wna tke it back..i wnt to end it..i really do

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Sun, 12-17-2006 - 7:06am

hey...

guys..i want to be happier with myself, i was thinkin i feel lonely, have a wonderful man great friends a good job..but what if the day comes and he also leaves me..i want to like myslef i want to love myself, learn to rely only on myself..but how? how do i do that? where do i start?

i agree..i will b happier in my marriage if and when im more comfortable with myself..how do i do that, i work all day, study and try and keep fit..takin classes etc..i dont have the time for a counsellor..i really dont and i cnt afford it...is there other ways i can start to like myself.

i agree with u guys, that distancing myself from these people will help, theyll b around but i dnt have to have them in my fce, but the next 8months! that will b torture and everntually it will wear me out...how do i keep it up, i have a lot to do, savin for marriage, studies..i failed so im not actually at uni at the moment. i keep a plan but never stick to it..im always easily distracted!! i hate that about me!

someone help me get my life on track, to like me...how do i?? im scared of being wit myself..

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Registered: 08-02-2005
Sun, 12-17-2006 - 11:41am
Learning to love yourself is a hard thing. I try to do things like create a gratitude list, tell myself something nice about myself every day and choose an affirmation daily. I will post them when I get back from vacation since I don't have them with me. I know I'm not much help, but this is an area I struggle with too.

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Amanda

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Sun, 12-17-2006 - 12:45pm

Hey Sami,


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Tue, 12-19-2006 - 5:21am

Hey guys,

Im so sorry that it took me a while to respond. To be honest, I did see your posts but didnt have the energy to actually say anything. But thank you all for ur support and caring words, it really means a lot to me :) thanx.

CL-schitz and onceachild, thank you, I think ure right, to love myself will be a process, if you could defo find me affirmations I would so appreciate that. Ive been going easy on myself these few days, Ive been able to talk to my husband to be, he;s been very supportive, emailing me all day from work, calling and texting. I am slowly seeing hope for the future. In terms of my mum I think its true, I dont have to be around her all the time soon..I can go and do my own thing..I will get better, I knw counselling should be something I should look into but, I feel like its such hard work...and I just dont have the energy to do it.

I have done schedules formyself, o work out three times a week, and do school work 3 times a week, leavin to go to work the other three days, with one day to spare, relax and rejuvinate..speak to friends and so forth.

I dont think I have ADD to be honest, i know i dont wot i meant was i get distracted cos of so much crap in my head. It becomes hard..I hope to lurke around here if thats ok.Just to get tips on feeling ok again, I would appreciate that.

Thank you for ur kindness]
sami

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Tue, 12-19-2006 - 12:23pm

Hey Sami,


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Tue, 12-19-2006 - 12:33pm

Affirmation for today...


"I am good enough"


My friend Carolyn always tells me this. I am a perfectionist in many areas in my life and don't think that my best is good enough. But you must know that your best IS good enough...1


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Amanda

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