I've been up and down all week

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Registered: 08-31-2006
I've been up and down all week
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Sat, 12-16-2006 - 7:49am

Hi

Just wanted to check in and let everyone know how I have been..
I have had an up and down week. I only have one REALLY bad day this week. But I am still alive! I declared yesterday as a day of no worrying, crying or therapy visits.

I had a point where I wanted to cry because of something I was watching on T.V. So I stop watching it and did something else.

I think I need more days like this. The only thing is I won't get better if I don't address my problems.

I am trying to stay strong but every once in awhile. The big time thoughts hit me.

So I still need you love and support.
TTYL
Shelly

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Registered: 08-02-2005
Sat, 12-16-2006 - 1:26pm

(((Shelly)))


I'm sorry to hear that you've been up and down all week, but at least there were ups and you had only ONE really bad day.


I'm very proud of you for taking that day for yourself to live as if nothing was wrong. You're right things won't get better if you don't address them, but by the same token you need those days where you can distance yourself from your problems and live as though they don't exist. It's all about balance. The no crying, no therapy days will help us with short term feelings and the therapy will help things for the long run. I know you will find that balance.


Hugs,

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Amanda

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sat, 12-16-2006 - 5:48pm

Hi Shelly,


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Sat, 12-23-2006 - 11:38am

I had another up day yesterday. I was feeling good but still had a little misery although I tried very hard to block the negative thoughts from occuring. I did well as keeping the negatives at bay. I am still concerned that I should be working 24/7 to get better that it is wearing me down. So I am trying to allow myself part of the day to work on getting better and the other half to not focus on what is happening.
If I just make it throught the holiday I am hoping things will be better. However I have the thought that something very bad will take a hold of me after the holidays.
So pray for me.

Thanks and Happy Holidays to you all.

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Sat, 12-23-2006 - 3:09pm

Hey there,


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Tue, 12-26-2006 - 11:04am

Good for you for fighting those negative thoughts. That shows me just how strong you are!


You don't have to work 24/7 to get well. Some might believe that everything you do should be working toward getting better but that's not just feasible. You need a break sometimes, but guess what, that break IS working toward getting better too!


Keep it up.

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Amanda