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| Thu, 12-28-2006 - 1:45pm |
I have really thought about this and all thats lACKING IS ABIT OF COURAGE TO GO FORWARD
PEOPLE OFTEN SAY THAT YOU THINK ABOUT DISAPPEARING FROM THE WORLD WHEN THE BALANCE OF YOUR MIND IS DISTURBED BUT QUITE HONESTLY I FEEL REALLY RATIONAL ABOUT THIS
sorry caps lock
I have looked at alternatives but there really is no way to improve.
I am in terrible debt and although helped out by family and friends find it impossible to support myself and three grown up kids on one salary.It keeps getting worse.My rich soon to be ex has cut off one more source of income and the solicitor i use need a payment of 100 pounds per month
an amount i simply cant find.
I have three beautiful kids great friends and an amazing family but i feel on the periphery of life and have done for some time.
If you met me this would surprise you as i am considered extrovert and confident
But i am alone.........no partner nor ever likely to have one........overweight... i work hard at my job but never have any money..........there is no relief.
wwhen i look ahead i see more of the same or even worse
i am on so many bad credit lists that when we sell this house as we must do son i cant see myself getting amortgage...........all the woprld is ful of couples and i am the wrong side of 40.......the very wrong side...............
.thanks for listening lol i just needed to write this down..........
PEOPLE OFTEN SAY THAT YOU THINK ABOUT DISAPPEARING FROM THE WORLD WHEN THE BALANCE OF YOUR MIND IS DISTURBED BUT QUITE HONESTLY I FEEL REALLY RATIONAL ABOUT THIS
sorry caps lock
I have looked at alternatives but there really is no way to improve.
I am in terrible debt and although helped out by family and friends find it impossible to support myself and three grown up kids on one salary.It keeps getting worse.My rich soon to be ex has cut off one more source of income and the solicitor i use need a payment of 100 pounds per month
an amount i simply cant find.
I have three beautiful kids great friends and an amazing family but i feel on the periphery of life and have done for some time.
If you met me this would surprise you as i am considered extrovert and confident
But i am alone.........no partner nor ever likely to have one........overweight... i work hard at my job but never have any money..........there is no relief.
wwhen i look ahead i see more of the same or even worse
i am on so many bad credit lists that when we sell this house as we must do son i cant see myself getting amortgage...........all the woprld is ful of couples and i am the wrong side of 40.......the very wrong side...............
.thanks for listening lol i just needed to write this down..........

Hi Agelina and welcome to the board. I'm glad you found us--although I wish NONE of us ever had to suffer enough to NEED such a board!
Sometimes it's enough to just put our feelings out there.... it helps us to feel "heard," and less isolated and supported. Other times, we need more. It sounds like the latter might be the case for you right now. (Although you are ALWAYS welcome to post here--even if you seek real life help as well!) That said, if you are feeling unsafe please do yourself AND your loved ones a favor and seek
Hi Agelina,
I agree with Lori's suggestion that your kids should get jobs. One person can't always support 4 people, but 4 people can do it together. Even if for some reason they can't work full time, 3 part time jobs would help a lot!
Some people never are rich and never have a house! You said your ex is rich so I'm guessing you had enough money when you were together. That's something to appreciate.
I've never had a house, people don't need to own a house to live life. Even if you have to rent apartments for a few years, it will be fine. A lot of people have to do that.
I'm not trying to minimize your feelings but to put it in perspective. Money is so easy to lose. So many people are poor and extremely poor. You can still be happy.
Edited 12/29/2006 4:12 pm ET by bluerains