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| Sat, 12-30-2006 - 11:11pm |
I won't go into details, since it is my place to he here for you, but I had a severe crisis yesterday/today, so I will not be answering posts today, but know that I am sending my love and will be back tomorrow.
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Amanda,
Why do these things have the worst timing? It never seems to fail, for me at least, that something will go wrong and wreck a holiday or vacation, etc. I hope you're OK and can still have a decent New Year! I hope you're not sick! See, my imagination is running away with me. Feel better!
Have you ever tried broccoli cheddar soup? It's a real comfort food for me. It's very soothing. I wish I could bring you a bowl but since you're in Canada, it will have to be an e-soup. It usually helps me feel better.
Edited 12/31/2006 5:49 pm ET by bluerains
Thanks blue for the esoup ;)
I'm still here so I guess that's something. I was really close to coming to the end and my eating disorder is in high gear. Plus I have realised that "stable" for me is dysthymia and that I'll never be truly stable, just manic, depressed or dysthymic. Sigh.
"I have realised that "stable" for me is dysthymia and that I'll never be truly stable, just manic, depressed or dysthymic."
I've realized that as long as I have to function in the world, the same is true for me. If I had someone to take care of me and handle all the stressful details, drive me everywhere, etc. I'd probably be pretty stable. But as long as I have to function and attempt to be independent, I'll always have some level of stress or sadness.
I have heard that the twenties are a very hard time in someone's life and once you get older it gets easier. Oprah said it recently that once she hit age 40 she felt a lot more secure about herself. So maybe it will get easier...
I sent you an email whenver you get a chance to read it.
Amanda, I haven't been online much this week. but know that i'm thinking of you and i'm praying for you. It is a tough road ahead and just knowing that someone out there cares about me and thinks about me has brought me a long way.
Just know that tonight and always i'm thinking of you i'm praying for you and I do CARE about YOU.
Robin/Libby
Thanks Libby.
You're definately right that this is hard road.
Unhappy new year.
I had a date with Ed tonight (that is my eating disorder). I bought an entire pizza and ate it and tried to purge in the garbage in the park but was unsuccessful. That made me even more depressed and when I crossed the road and the car stopped I thought "darn". How sad. Why can't I just want to get better. I've given up hope in anything more than mediocrity and even that feels a far stretch right now.
Ed sounds like a lousy date! It must have been really cold in the park. I can imagine it was a terrible night.
No matter what, you have got through one more year! 2006 is over and you never have to go through that again. That is a huge milestone and a big deal I think.
Thank you Blue.
Yup ED is like an abusive bf. I can understand how people can get stuck in such relationships. Mine just isn't with a real person lol.
My tarot and oracle cards are still predicting a productive and creative time for me, so I have to hold on to that.