upset with myself!

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upset with myself!
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Wed, 01-03-2007 - 6:50pm

I went to see my primary dr. today for a follow up from my hospital visit. He said the only thing he can offer me is pain meds for the pain. I don't want any pain meds i'm scared to death to take them! I just want the pain to go away. he told me that on the scans he can see damage to my kidney and my liver (bruising) and that i have bruising and nerve damage inbetween two of my ribs it hurts so bad sometimes to just breath!

i've done too much today and now i'm really feeling the pain. i just want to go and lay down and go to sleep so i don't feel it but i can't. my dh isn't home and of course all the kids have to pick now to act up. my son is cycling big time and he doesn't go to see his phyciatrist till tomorow afternoon. Luckily we see the same one so i can talk to him tomorow to. now to just hang on till tomorrow!!!!

Robin

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Wed, 01-03-2007 - 7:56pm

>>>He said the only thing he can offer me is pain meds for the pain. I don't want any pain meds i'm scared to death to take them!<<<

Ask for a referral to a pain specialist. He/She should be able to address the actual pain without necessarily giving you pain meds.

Lin

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Wed, 01-03-2007 - 10:59pm

Hey Robin,


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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 9:26am

He said as the bruising heals it will get better. he said the nerves will take longer. I didn't know there was a pain specialist!

I ended up spending the night at a friends house (already planned to help her out) and slept with a heating pad. i ended up getting a lot of rest at her house because i locked myself in the bedroom and her kids are so good. i just had to be a body in the house from 4 am till 7 am. so i even got to sleep in a little.

I'm hurting a lot today and don't want to do much but if i don't do the laundry it won't get done! and I have a 45 minute drive to pick up my son from school and take him to see his phyciatrist.

Robin

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 11:04am

Good Morning, Robin,


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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 3:45pm

Robin,

I'm sorry you're hurting so much! I try to avoid medicine too but in this case I would take it. Maybe you can take a half dose or a smaller dose? It sure sounds like you need something! Or you can learn self hypnosis as an alternative. There are psychologists that specialize in hypnotherapy.

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 4:33pm

I picked up my son from school and we went for our appt. the dr. increased my xanax for 1/2 a pill in the afternoon if i need it. and we adjusted my sons meds.

I saw my therapist by myself today and it was a good sesssion. She did ask me one question though qnd i've given it a lot of thought.

She asked me that if when my dh and I get into arguements and do something wrong to each other if we ever say "i'm sorry" I know i have told him i'm sorry but i don't ever remember him saying the words "i'm sorry" not even hinting at them. he has a hard time admiting when he is wrong. I don't even remember him telling the kids he was sorry for something. He told my dd about two weeks ago he was so mad at her he wanted to put his fist in her face. i was angry!!! really angry!!! and my dd was hurt!!! she said he didn't tell her he was wrong to say it or say he was sorrry. I told him she was waiting for him to say he was sorry and he told me he wasn't going to that maybe saying that was wrong but he didn't feel he owed her an appology. I told him he owed her a lot more then an appology!

So that was something to think about today. I went to get meds filled after the dr. visit and tried to do the walmart $4.00 rx but it didn't work out for us so i had to wait there and then go to walgreens and wait there. i finally got tired called my dh and he is going to pick them up on his way home tonight.

I'm at my friends house again tonight so i'll get to go to bed early and relax at her house while he has the kids lol. i'm there next week 2 nights. it helps to pay for the rx's though even though i've told her she doesn't have to pay me she does. so that will cover some of the rx's we have to fill today!

Robin

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 4:36pm

After being given the narcan and what happened i'm even afraid to take a tylenol until my liver heals. they said that with it bruised it doesn't process the same way. my friend has a hot tub so i'm going to try that tonight and see if the heat helps the pain. I had the 3 year old i watch today and she climbed into the cart and someone came over and helped me get her in and the cashier helped to get her out today that was a blessing. Thankfullly she is a very easy 3 year old and she helps me. she likes to hand me the laundry to put in the wash and i hand it to her to put in the dryer she has actually helpeed me this week more then my own kids have lol.

Robin

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Thu, 01-04-2007 - 8:52pm

Hey Robin,


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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 2:24pm
Wow Robin I must have missed a post because I had no idea. I sending healing vibes.

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Amanda

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Fri, 01-05-2007 - 5:30pm

Today I lost it with one of my dd's I told her she was acting like a b and i was mad. she was being a brat but she didn't deserve for me to call her that. later i went into her room and appologised but she told me to stuff it. i'll give her time and see what happens.

Today is a really bad day. my 3 older girls 19, 17, 15 and the 19 and 15 year olds are ganging up on the 17 yearold and just totally disrespecting me. I told my 15 year old that if it didn't stop she wasn't leaving the house tonight to go to her aunts. she didn't stop so i said thats it your not going. then the 19 year old steps in and says she is going and you can't stop her. i told her if you continue to talk to me this way then give me your key because i'm not a piece of trash for you to talk to anyway you please. so she stomped off and refused to give me her key. I hve her key and the 15 year old isn't going anywhere. so i'm prepared for a fight tonihgt and with my dh because he is going to side with them just to get the tension out of the house. so i know tonight is going to be filled with argueing screaming and hatred and i'm not looking forward to it. i'm still in a lot of pain and trying to get the tree taken down.

at this time i don't care if i ever see anyother christmas tree as long as i live. i think next year i'd like to just sleep through christmas!

Robin

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