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So glad to be back
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Tue, 01-09-2007 - 1:17am
 

Halfway through my posting last time I got an error and was unable to access ivillage for several days. I'm so glad it's working today. I missed you all and have come to realize how much I need you, not only because I'm in a bad place but so I don't feel alone and because helping others helps me feel better too.


I had an okay day today. About a 2.5 (my pdoc has me rate it out of ten). A 3 is functionally depressed. I functioned today but just barely and I'm not ready to say for sure that I'm there yet. I did go to school, but when I got home lied on the couch until the absolute last second and then got ready to go out. I went to the Evanescence concert. It was awesome. I bought 2 tshirts, one official tour shirt and a knock off that a street vendor was selling lol.


Wish me luck on tomorrow. Here's to a functional day.


So, how is everyone else doing?

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Amanda

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Tue, 01-09-2007 - 11:06am

Hey Amanda,


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Tue, 01-09-2007 - 1:58pm

Amands, i'm glad you got to go to the concert and had some fun. I'm praying for you that you have a better day today.

Today for me is ok. i'm tired and feeling the depression today. I stayed at my friends house last night to help her with the kids and as soon as i walked in the door this morning my dh calls from his celphone to tell me to clean!!! ug i'm behind on the laundry and there are dishes in the sink from last night (why didn't he do them i wasn't home) and the kids rooms need to be straightened up but basically thats all. so why is he calling me and telling me to clean. I can't pick up heavy stuff yet and i have to wait for the girls to get home to carry the clothes baskets up the steps for me. i'm washing but i can't get them put away. I took the little one i watch to art class today though and stopped at the grocery store to get spghetti for dinner and i'm back at my friends house tonight. so hopefully by 8 i'll be in bed! I don't sleep soundly there because i'm used to a my bed and this is a twin size bed that i sleep in so i don't get a real good nights sleep there. but atleast it's quiet and i can rest there.

He just thinks that i can snap my fingers and i'll be better. the dr. told me it would take a few weeks for my chest to heal from the cpr and a even a few months for the ribs to heal so what does he think i'm doing NOT trying to get better. I told him the more i rest the faster i'll get better! he is coming down with a cold and i'm actually glad that he is! i know it's horrible to say but atleast he can feel what it's like to be sick!!!

Robin

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Registered: 10-15-2006
Tue, 01-09-2007 - 2:00pm

Lori, if you don't mind my asking, what kind of surgery did you have?

Robin

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Tue, 01-09-2007 - 5:19pm

Hey Robin,


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Registered: 01-03-2007
Tue, 01-09-2007 - 5:29pm

If you could go other places and just not get here then your problem was probably your web browser.

Try Mozilla Firefox
http://www.mozilla.com/en-US/firefox/

I like Firefox more than Internet Explorer, but I keep both because sometimes one is better than the other at opening certain sites.

Lin

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Registered: 03-09-2005
Tue, 01-09-2007 - 8:57pm

I'm glad you're back too! I have a lot of internet problems with Ivillage too, like the internet suddenly shutting down when I'm at this site. Or sometimes I can't get on at all, and I wonder if they're doing site maintenence. It is frusterating!

I'm glad you enjoyed the concert!

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Registered: 10-15-2006
Tue, 01-09-2007 - 10:19pm

I had mine out 9 years ago and i had the same surgery. it does take while to get over it.

how are you feeling now?
robin

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Registered: 08-02-2005
Thu, 01-11-2007 - 9:29am

The concert was good but that night I got hit with the flu and spent the next 13 hours in bed. Hard to say what my mood has been the last two days. I've just been sick and wanting to sleep which contributes to the depression unfortunately.


I'm glad you've made it through a rough little while yourself. You are an inspiration to me to keep going.

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Amanda

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Registered: 08-02-2005
Thu, 01-11-2007 - 9:35am

Unfortunately my better mood didn't last as I got sick and missed school. I was mad at myself for not making it to school.


Sorry to hear that you've been tired and depressed too. Believe me I know where you're coming from.


It's hard to deal with people who think we can just get it over with. I in fact find myself thinking "why can't I just get over this, why don't I have any willpower to do anything". But you are injured you can't just think yourself better. Even if it wasn't physical and was the depression, you can't think your way out of that too.

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Amanda

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Thu, 01-11-2007 - 10:57am

Hey Amanda,


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