Oh my I need lots of support

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Oh my I need lots of support
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Wed, 01-17-2007 - 5:45pm

Well todays appt with the Pdoc did not go well.

First off let me tell you a little about him.. He always wants me to decide what meds I should be taking by saying, "what meds do you want to try"? He also sits behind his desk staring at his computer screen and clicking his mouse. What he is doing I have no idea for all I know he is playing solitaire on the computer. If I feel suicidal he does nothing.

I am always intimidated by him and fear him. Last week I had a panic attack in his office during my visit. So today I ask DH to go with me.

DH did not like the fact that the PDoc ask me what meds I should be taking. I also said to the PDoc that I wanted to switch to the other Pdoc that is in his office. I told him he intimidates me and I would rather see the other - who by the way I have seen before during the last 12 weeks of my treatment when I was in intensive outpatient therapy- and I like him. He said no I could not switch and he will not keep me as a doctor either since I said the magic words - which I guess is that I want to switch doctors.

So I am stuck with no Pdoc right now.

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Registered: 04-01-2003
Thu, 01-18-2007 - 6:23pm
I found this online thinking it might help you in your search for a new doc. Good luck!
Jessica
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Thu, 01-18-2007 - 6:25pm

Lori
I got a call this afternoon from my therapist to see why I canceled today appt. and to hear my side of what happened yesterday. I told her what happened yesterday.

I also told her if none of the Pdoc in that practice will treat me I don't want to continue coming there. By coming there to see her or the other therapist that I was seeing I am still financially supporting his practice and if he does not want to see me, then I am not giving him my money.

She is very concerned for me and told me that I can still come to see her and she would try to talk to the doctor to try and change his mind.

I mean all I told him was he intimidates me therefore I wanted to see the other Pdoc in the practice. My first visit to that practice I saw the other Pdoc and liked him. But once they took me out of IOP then the other doctor took over. So between the two of them I was way more comfortable with the other Pdoc.

This is just so crazy.

I see my family doc next week too & I will tell her what happened especially since she referred me to this practice.

Last night was very hard all I kept thinking about were the very bad thoughts of ending it all but I am hanging on for now.

Shell

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Thu, 01-18-2007 - 7:43pm

I am sorry your doctor was so inconsiderate. I just don't know why people would choose to be a therapist and then act like that. You would think they would be more understanding!

Keep trying though you'll find a good one if you keep looking.

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Thu, 01-18-2007 - 9:28pm

Hey Shelly,


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Fri, 01-19-2007 - 11:39am

You are definitly not a looser.

I had to call my therapist last night. she told me when i was in a bad place to call and leave a message on her machine and as soon as she got it if it was important she would call me back.

I called and vented into her machine lastnight. I was in the laundry room so no one would hear me. well as i came out of the laundry room my dd was hiding around the corner and heard every word i said and she had this grin on her face it was pure evil like ha i knew we were getting to you and i'm glad! i asked her how long she had been standing there and she said long enough i said how long she said long enough for to hear you making a fool of yourself to a shrink! so today i'm just trying to let it slide off my back and i'm driving about 45 minutes today to go and see my therapist. I was up all night and couldn't sleep. the last three days have been horrible and i just try to remember they are just teens, evil teens maybe and in that evil stage but i take everything personal and it is really getting to me and my dh just says right now "well you brought it on yourself" grrrrr that just makes me even more mad and depressed.

robin

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Fri, 01-19-2007 - 3:09pm

Hi Robin,


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Fri, 01-19-2007 - 3:11pm

I've gone into my doc and pdoc's office with what meds I wanted and didn't want to try. It is a good thing to research what's out there so you can decide which you don't want to try because of the side effects or other condition that you have that interferes with drug. I use www.mentalhealth.com. It is a Canadian site but I think the drugs are pretty much the same. There is also webmd, and www.drugdigest.org. drugdigest also has an interaction checker which is pretty good. I have found though that there are other sites with the interaction checker and they come up with different reactions sometimes. Weird.


You should definately ask for a new doc if you aren't comfortable with the one you have. All you have to say is that you don't feel that you are a good match, could you refer me to one of your colleagues. Or speak to the intake worker. I don't know if that will work, but it might and you won't have to say it to his face, something that I would be shy about.

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Sun, 01-21-2007 - 7:47pm
I feel very scared tonight because I'm thinking about the bad thoughts. I am so sad :(
Why ..
I am so sad and lonely even though DH is sitting right here with me. All I want to do is to go to sleep and never wake up. I can't take this anymore.

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