Haveing a "very" hard time - Trig

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Haveing a "very" hard time - Trig
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Wed, 01-24-2007 - 12:40pm

Hi everyone. The past 2 days have been very hard for me. If you read my other discussion title you will see why.

I am having a hard time fighting the urge to hurt myself. If it weren't for the fact that my Nephew asked me to babysit his 1 year old so his wife come go with there 7 year daugher on her field trip to the science center I might not be here.

I need a lot of prayers and support - PLEASE

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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 12:44am

Sorry I have not written lately. It has been an ordeal! I made an appt to see another Pdoc only to be told by the therapist doing my intake that I could not get an appt to see a Pdoc until mid-March! UGH what else could go wrong. I have too be released to go back to work by March 1.... What a waste of time. Precious time I could have used to hunt for another Pdoc that can see me soon.

As soon as I got home I was upset about this set back - road block. All I seem to be doing is hitting a ton of detours and getting no where. So I called several offices of Pdoc listed on my insurance web page that are in network providers. After several turn downs to see a Pdoc in the near future, I finally got an appt with a Pdoc. She happens to be about 15 miles from home but at least she can see me soon!

I saw her today and she seems like she will be able to help me. Unlike the other a** hole I mention in the first part of this thread. I hated to repeat my story again. I have told it so many times I am not sure I tell everything there is to tell because I have repeated it so many time.
She reduced the amount of Paxil I am taking and put me on Lexapo as well. Along with the klonopin. So maybe now I can get back on track with my recovery! She wrote me a note to be off work till March 1. She was kind hearted unlike the other doc who intimidated me.

So after this appt I felt weird in a good way. Like something good was happening I felt at ease. Even was able to go to Target by myself and did not feel uptight. Then
I stopped at Boston Market picked up dinner. Man it was nice to come home and not have to cook. I could relax and think about what changes lay ahead for me.
So I have less than 30 days and I have to return to work. I have to pick up the pieces and carry on.

So with your help and support and prayer I will be able to get through this. I hope!

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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 11:53am

Hey Shelly,


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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 12:27pm

I am trying so hard to get over these hurtles although they can be monsterious I have found some comfort in reading "The Confident Woman" by Joyce Meyers. It is a good tool for dealing with self esteem and hurt.

So if you need a little pick me up. Please check out your local library.

How have you been Lori?

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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 10:40pm

Hey there,


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Fri, 02-09-2007 - 10:47pm
What type of job did you interview for?
You could make lots of money if Ivillage allowed you to charge for the therapy you provide to us.
I will pray that you get this job. But then if you get this job you will have less time to help us! What will we do without you. I know I would be heart broken. Here we go another set back for me Woo is me.. Just kidding.
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Sat, 02-10-2007 - 11:03am

Cute, Shell--lol!! You sure are good for the ego you ladies! *Wink* I interviewed at the newspaper office. The job would be an entry level office type position helping subscribers who wanted to renew, trying to GET them to renew if they weren't sure, doing paperwork etc. BORRRINNGGGG--lol!!


I had to crack up at your comment re: ivillage paying me for the work I do here but I guess the fact that I VOLUNTEERED as well as the fact that I'm not acting as a therapist here in the technical sense sort of rules that out. LOL!


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Mon, 02-12-2007 - 10:07am

Lori
At least it is an inside job. Remember 20 years ago getting people to but the paper meant standing on the street corner yelling out the headlines of the latest edition in hopes that you would make a sale. LOL Picturing Lori standing on a street corner in this freezing weather....NOT

Anyway at least it would give you some extra dough in your pockets.

What will you do with all that money. Oh I know start your very own web page for providing therapy to us and then charge us a fee.

Well let us know how things turn out. What paper will you be working for?

Take care. and we are suppose to get hammered with snow - lots of it - starting tomorrow. I hate all this white stuff! Hope fully it won't make it up your way.

Take care.

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Mon, 02-12-2007 - 10:26am

Hey Shelly,


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Mon, 02-12-2007 - 8:47pm

Let's see....designing a web page and offering cyber-therapy. Ya know, there are therapists that actually do that and I guess it works okay. But there is also something to be said with getting to know a client's body language and personality having them sitting right in front of you! ;)

Well Lori there is such a thing as web cams. As a prerequisite your clients would have to have a web cam - body language and personality issue - solved.

You have to tell us more about the ceiling falling in on you.

I only the other hand for the past 4 days on at least 2 occasions I have been on critter patrol. We have not figured out where the critter is but it is either in the soffit outside of our family room. Or we have gutter guard on the gutters and they are running in the gutters- for the critter it is more like running in a tunnel.

But any how to extricate the critter this is what I do... I open the family room window that has no screen. Then I lean out.. don't worry it's on the first floor so there is no worry about my falling out and hurting myself. As I lean out the window I take my broom handle and tap on the soffit and the gutter. With that the critter starts scurrying in the oposite direction and the noise stops.

My neighbors behind me probably think I am crazy. And all this time I took Paxil and Lexapro for my GAD and Panic attacks when really I am a crazy lady who hangs out windows with a broom! LOL

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Mon, 02-12-2007 - 11:19pm

I won't start REALLLY worrying until you tell me you are FLYING on the broom--lolol!!! ;)


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