Help me please (trig)
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Help me please (trig)
| Tue, 02-13-2007 - 10:01pm |
Lori
If you are online I need a FRIEND! I have had another set back and I can't take anymore set backs. I have such a strong urge to hurt myself. I need a friend. My husband finally made it home because of the snow storm.
Please talk to me. I am desperate and no I don't want to go to the hospital. I just need to have a hug.
If you are online I need a FRIEND! I have had another set back and I can't take anymore set backs. I have such a strong urge to hurt myself. I need a friend. My husband finally made it home because of the snow storm.
Please talk to me. I am desperate and no I don't want to go to the hospital. I just need to have a hug.

Hey Shelly,
Hi Lori
DH made it home around 9p.m. last night. It only took him 5 hrs to travel a trip that usually only takes 1hr and 15 mins!
He made me take Klonipins and I went to sleep till about 4 a.m. Woke up to several 3 foot drifts of snow - which means we are snowed in. DH did get the driveway cleared but out road is a mess.
Anyway the trig was the crashing of the high hopes I had on landing a new job. A recruiter contacted me last weekend and set up an interview this past Monday. The interview went great. It was a laid back interview - it was like sitting at a bar with two guys shooting the breeze. Later on the recruiter called to see how it went I told him it went well.
He said they told him the loved me and they were dotting the i's and crossing there t's and as soon as he hears back from them he will call me. But it looks like a go.
Well he called and said it was not a go. '
It was just another d*** let down for me. Lori I feel like I am such a loser.
It hurts me so bad. Why I can't get past the point of getting an offer. It has been 4 months and nothing.
I was home all alone-bad snow storm so I could not leave and man it just hurts me.
I got up at 4 a.m. and began crying all over again. My sister who is sick with a sore throat IM me all morning. I mention how God does not love me and wants Santin to take my soul. If God loves me why is all this happening. I have prayed and asked him for help. I've cried to him and asked him to help me and protect me. Instead he gives me all these let downs which I can't handle. I am on the brink. I wanted so badly to sit on the railroad tracks last night.
Sorry to talk your ears off.
Here's another e-hug.
I've looked for jobs many times and it usually takes a long time and many interviews. It's very hard. There's just a ton of competion out there so it takes longer. I'm going to be job seeking again very soon. And I'm pretty much dreading it! So we're in this together.
Hi Shelly,
Yup, I COULD do that...but I decided against it because I don't want to have to move twice in a short period of time! I've decided to wait to move until I go to live with my partner within a year. Hugs, Lori