i really messed up...trigger

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Registered: 04-01-2003
i really messed up...trigger
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Sun, 02-18-2007 - 12:09am
I ended up in the hospital for a severe kidney infection but while i was in the er, i dont remember what i said cause i was so confused and hadnt taken my meds for a few days but they had me on sui#@de watch with a sitter and they wanted me to commit myself to a psych hospital> I was thinking that they were going to put me in a bag and throw me away and I actually told them that-what was I thinking????? I have been so depressed lately. They asked me if I am sui@#dal and I said well the idea is in my head all the time but I dont have aplan and I have never hurt myself so does that make me? I told them as soon as I get back on my meds I would be fine but until then I didnt trust myself. Then they are all worried about my girls and dh is telling me that they can take them away and the dr said she may need to get people involved and then pdoc came in and talked to me and then he called dh and next thing I know my room sitter was released and I was released from the hospital and told to follow up with my pdoc. I love my babies so much and have never nor would I ever hurt them at all. I cant stop having nightmares about all of this and different scenarios destroying my beautiful home life with my family. Please help me with an encouraging word. I thought I was doing the right thing by getting help instead it made me scared. I was also told that kidney infections can cause mental confusion... maybe that helps explain the thought process that i was going through. the doc seeing me also said that she thought i would be fine as soon as i took my meds again and i did feel a lot better.
jessica
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sun, 02-18-2007 - 10:54am

Hi Jessica,


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Registered: 03-09-2005
Sun, 02-18-2007 - 4:51pm

Jessica,

Don't worry too much about this. If I understand correctly, they didn't actually take any actions since that time, have they? They just said they might, but haven't done anything yet? I would think they'd understand that you were sick and feverish. You did not mess up.

Get well soon, and don't worry about this unless something further actually happens.