well the moods are back
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| Mon, 03-12-2007 - 3:20pm |
I have been doing really good and then all of a sudden my moods are all over the place once again, in 1 minute I can go from being in a Good mood to being so depressed to being so mad that I want to hurt someone or myself, there isnt too many meds out there that I can take due to my medical history. My T is gone for a week so I have to deal with this on my own. My weight issures are getting so bad that I am willing to even take Epherda once again and just hope that I dont have another stroke. my poor DH he tries but where I am at now anything sets me off and I lose it I get so moody towards everyone, I hate feeling this way but I refuse to take anything that is going to make me gain wt, I have gained enough.
Cant wait till fall gets here so I can be alone durning the day ( kids will be in school) I NEED OUT.
sorry this is more or less a vent post had to yell
Mary

Hey Mary,
yes Marsha and I still have the closeness I would have to say more then ever. I talk to her a lot I know things will get better for me but this is when I cycle and it gets pretty intense, I really hate having bipolar, the meds either make me gain tons of wt or I cant take them bc of my stroke. The only one I talk to is Marsha when I dont have my T and at times I talk to Marsha instead of my T.
I had it out with my sister today and I told her not to call me or talk to me or I would put a no contact order on her, she is totally out there she thinks I am going to steal money from her and hurt her so I decided that I am tired of trying to help her i kow its selfish but her new boyfriend is creepy and I have to protect my children, that is the only thing that is keeping me here as of right now, I know things will get worse and so does my T but I am hoping that I am going to beable to deal with it this time, she said that I have have a problem with impulse control, wat ever that means, I think she was saying that I dont think things out but actually I do maybe too much. lol I am a total mess today, DH is on his way home so I better get off of here I dont like him to know I have been to this board bc he worries way too much and his health isnt very good.
Mary
Hi Mary,
Hi Mary, yell away. i know i like it best when the kids are in school. less stress on me. lol I know what you mean by mood swings i hate them. i've been having them also.
just when you are in one of those moods think of something nice and relaxing. doesn't always work but we can always give it a try.
Robin