I don't know what to do
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I don't know what to do
| Sun, 04-01-2007 - 3:56pm |
My husband went ballistic on me (again) this morning. He screamed at me how I was crazy and kept twirling his finger beside his head to put a visual to his words. He says he is leaving me and the kids. Always Always Always whenever I drop my guard and let him in, go to him for support when I am struggling it comes back full-force and hits me smack in the face. He knows about my last 'episode',,,,,was so kind to me then and now it is like I am dealing with a whole other individual. It takes so much strength to not let him literally collapse me when he does this to me. How can I ever even begin to think about getting better when I live with one of the major reasons I do what I do to myself ? I cannot keep this house and my car and take care of my kids on just my income and how he knows that and how he smears that in my face over and over again. I am nothing more than a liability, something in the way,,,,,deep down I know that all he says is true and it makes my head swim with the despair of it all. It is just so hard keeping up the 'happy front' for the sake of my family,,,,,,one day my body and thoughts are going to just tell me to 'stop',,,,they will say 'no more' it is time to finally rest.
Abby
Abby

Hey Abby,
Hi! Thanks so much for posting your inspirational thoughts. Our community appreciates your support. Please don't be a stranger. You are always welcome here. (((hugs))) jan