Scare

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Scare
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Wed, 04-18-2007 - 8:50am
Hi
My Dr. is back in town and called me last night. She wants to see me this morning. She asked if I would be alright until I see her. I know she will want to put me in the hospital. I can't afford it. I can't even afford to see my T the way I should. We have been doing phone therapy which is hard to do. This would be easier if______________.
Joan
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Wed, 04-18-2007 - 10:21am

Hi Joan,


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Wed, 04-18-2007 - 1:48pm

Can you NOT afford too, Joan? Is ending your life more important than regaining your footing & living a better life? What is your life worth? Can anyone put a price on it? If you don't have your health, they say you have nothing. But, here's a chance @ getting well. Getting your health back!


Having been on the end of having no insurance to cover an IP stay, I can say with certainty that programs exist that will help cover the bill. In the event there aren't any(check with the hospital social workers) you can still make a payment plan through the billing department. You can manage.


Sometimes when we're stressed we begin to think catastrophically. Worrying about things

 

 


 



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In reply to: jsseastorm
Wed, 04-18-2007 - 6:59pm
I made it thru the Dr. with a med change, 4 weeks off of work and a healing plan. I also went to my T and we looked at the plan and add to it. Next week they are meeting and discussing how the plan is working and what would be best for me. I agreed to do what ever they felt was best. My DH thinks that was the best. I have a safetly plan in effect. Plus I need to check in with my T everyday. I'm starting to see some light. I'm starting to let out the anger on who it belongs too. I have a lot of work to do, but I'm seeing many reasons to fight to live. Things are still very up and down. But I'm trying to look towards the up.
Joan
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In reply to: jsseastorm
Wed, 04-18-2007 - 10:49pm

Hey Joan,


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Thu, 04-19-2007 - 3:13pm

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I am very glad to hear that you're hanging in there. It won't be easy, but it will be worth it in the end to choose life. It never seems that way @ the time because living is the hard part. It's easy to look @ things as if they'll never change. They will.


That is great news, Joan, that you have a plan in place. Checking in with the *t* daily is very reassuring. I don't know if you see it this way, but I see that both your dr. & *t* see your value & worth. Hold on to that when you feel alone & friendless. I have shared this before & hope that it helps in someway. I read once about birds flying in formation. The leader takes all the wind. Takes all the turbulence. But, he reaches a point when it's too much for him. He falls back & the other birds surround him, while a new bird takes the lead. This gives him a much needed rest as he glides along the air his friends provide for him. You deserve to fall back, Joan. Accept the help of others. It's your time for a bit of R&R.


Good luck & GBU! Please keep in touch. We care. jan

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Thu, 04-19-2007 - 5:47pm
Today was a rough day. But I looked in my positive book I made often. It help. I think everyone should make a book like the one I did. It has letters from my kids, cards friends send me, pictures of happy times (kids, wedding, vacations, other picture close to my heart), postive affirmations, emergency numbers, things to look forward to, things to live for. It's a happy book, but not one that makes things seem out of reach when your down. I add to it on up days. It took a little convincing to open the book today. But I did and it made time pass until my dd came home and I was safe until dh came home and now we can talk.