*Sigh*

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Registered: 01-17-2007
*Sigh*
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Thu, 05-10-2007 - 8:10am

Morning...


I feel so incredibly numb right now.  I have been emailing The Samaritans for an outlet and I thought this would be another good place for me to let go.  I have had it with life.  It doesnt fill me with joy as it did.  I know life has its responsibilities but the fun is gone for me.  I thought if I joined a gym it would relieve some of the pain... it hasnt but I still go.  I have some glimmer of hope... That is all I have right now.  DH doesnt really help too much with working all day long and I barely see him except when I leave for work.  This is not what I expected marriage to be like.  I am so depressed that I just want to cry.  I have no desire to work, talk, anything.... I just want my dark room to be left alone. 

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Registered: 01-17-2007
In reply to: grizgirl
Mon, 05-14-2007 - 2:22pm

OH Jan!

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Registered: 01-17-2007
In reply to: grizgirl
Tue, 05-15-2007 - 7:21am

I figure instead of making a whole new post I would just continue using the one I have....


Anywho, I changed therapist not because I didnt like the one I was currently seeing but her hours are not convenient for my schedule.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: grizgirl
Tue, 05-15-2007 - 10:29am

Hey Darla,


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Registered: 01-17-2007
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-17-2007 - 9:05am

Well today is the day I see my new therapist, Gina.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-17-2007 - 9:43am

Hey Darla,


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Registered: 01-17-2007
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-24-2007 - 6:58am

OMG!!!


I really need a cyber hug right about now! :(


After I talked to Dh about what happened the other night I was hoping he would say something...ANYTHING.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-24-2007 - 9:28am

{{{{{Darla}}}}} Big cyber hugs to you!!


I know for me, when I've gotten that kind of reaction from someone I care about and have shared something with, it leaves me with some uncomfortable feelings. For starters, it is hard for some of us to be vulnerable ---even with someone we love. And when we feel they haven't responded with equal emotion or commitment, we often feel slighted, rejected, angry, frustrated, even more scared, alone.... Have I hit them all yet? *Wink* At least that's true for ME anyway!


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Registered: 01-17-2007
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-24-2007 - 9:38am

Lori~


Of course you hit the nail on the head.

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Registered: 07-19-2003
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-24-2007 - 3:33pm
seems as though depression is your problem, not the marraige. have you seen a psychiatrist? a therapist? they cna be a gret help, you hsouldn't have to do this alone
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: grizgirl
Thu, 05-24-2007 - 6:37pm

Hey Darla,


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