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| Thu, 05-10-2007 - 5:08pm |
This may or may not have a trig in it... But
I could not believe what I heard, but it all makes sense to me, what she says about him, It is scary, from what I've told her about him how he treated me, and I'm realizing things about myself. Low self esteem, the attention I got from my past relationship kept me there, when I was uncomfortable with him at times, That I probably do not miss him, I miss the attention. Some of you might know about the past relationship, but I'm not sure if I meantioned the age difference between us, I'm 18, he is 37. I thought it was weird but didn't think much of it. She said I was probably a person of sexual abuse from him, he manipulated me into thinking it was ok, here I am a vunlerable young girl with low self esteem, I can get her to do whatever I want. She thinks he is at the fence post with being a child molestar, that I was safe for him, but he still got the fantasy of being with someone 19yrs younger. I told her things I've told him and he did not care and how he had nick names for me ect that seemed like he was on that road. for example: I told him he was old enough to be my father, (he was looking at pic of my nephew at his first b-day with chocolate all over, he joked that I hurt him and probably a child abuser, I told him that he was the child abuser b/c a few months ago I was only 17.) Now I'm almost 19. That he acted like he forgot how old I was, b/c he liked that I was so young. He used to call me his slave girl. she said the fact that he called me girl and not woman, that he wanted control of me b/c he wanted me as his slave, that children usually do not have any control that children might be his fantasy, and he made the nick-name for him as Dirty old man. & then other things he did and said like the rules did not apply to him... now he was diagnosed or anything, this is what she thought, now I'm scared & do not know what to do, what to say to him, he coaches his daughters basketball team and softball teams, & I remember once I knocked over a team picture off his desk and he freaked out said I was going to ruin the picture of his girls. OMG now I'm scared for these children he his coaching, mentoring, teching, and supervising, and his daughter. I mean what if it is true he has a thing for young women and girls. I'm really freaking out and this was the only place I new I could tell this, without judgement, hopefully. He is not the cause of my depression but he helped me hit rock bottom with it, I do not want to quit my job, I love the other people there, but what to do, should I leave just because of him. thinking of all this I have not had any thoughts so that is a good thing I guess.

Hey Caitlin,
Hey Caitlin,