Ive hit rock bottom, please help!

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Registered: 05-21-2007
Ive hit rock bottom, please help!
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Mon, 05-21-2007 - 12:50pm
First of all can i say hi to everyone, this is my first post and i dearly hope im in the right place. I have suffered with terrible depression for most of my life, i have been diagnosed this year with bipolar and am on medication. My problem is, my life has turned upside down yet again, and i feel too low and weak to climb out of depression this time. Im so afraid, lonely and terrified of the future. This past week my youngest son has been thrown out by his girlfriend, ive been told i cant see my baby grandaughter any more. My partner of 3 years has left me, and now my car has broken down and i cannot afford the repair bills. I live in the countryside so am now very isolated. I have no support system, only my psychiatrist whom i see every 6 months. I am new to the area and have no friends or outside interests. I dont know where to start, i feel physically ill because my thoughts are driving me insane. I have been to hell and back during my life, as most of you will have too, but the fact i have lost everyone dear to me makes me feel that i have nothing to offer anymore. My self-esteem is zero. Please, any support or advice would be great. Thankyou, victoria
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Mon, 05-21-2007 - 8:06pm

Hi Victoria and welcome to the board...although I am sorry you (or anyone for that matter) has need for such a place. I am pretty sure you will find it a safe supportive place so I hope you will stay and get to know us--and vice versa!


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Registered: 05-21-2007
Tue, 05-22-2007 - 1:36pm
Thankyou Lori for your kind reply. Today i have been to see my psychiatrist, she has given me some more tablets for my present state of mind! I have also got the crisis team coming to see me everyday for the next month, so thats some great support. Yes my son is the father of my baby grandaughter, but his partner is being spiteful because they have split up and she wont allow any of us to see the baby! Maybe when im feeling stronger i will see what the law is regarding grandparents.As for my ex-partner, he was great and understanding when we first met, but over the past 3 years i think hes fed up with my problems and hes had enough. Thankyou, victoria
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Registered: 07-19-2003
Thu, 05-24-2007 - 3:30pm
it seems like it would be warrented to see your dr more then twice a year, call them, tll them how you feel, be persisstant, otherwise if yo udont have access to groups, keep comming here, if you really feel like you might hurt yourslf, PLEASE call 911
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 06-06-2007 - 3:28pm

Hi, Victoria! I was sorry to hear about your situation): However, your second post indicated that you have some supports in place. That is awesome!


How are things going? We do care about you in this community & certainly want the best for you. You DID post in the right place. I am sending lots of PT's to you & your dear baby. GL! (((hugs))) jan

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