Anxiety,,,,,,trigs

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Registered: 07-24-2004
Anxiety,,,,,,trigs
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Thu, 06-07-2007 - 7:08pm
Hi,,,,,I'm not really feeling SU but I'd be lying to myself if it wasn't always on the backburner. Anxiety here,,,hard times,,,,,he's mean and I'm trying with all my strength to keep him from yelling at me,,,,,when I get yelled at it feels like chunks of my insides are being yanked out.
Anyway another anxiety issue is arising. I don't do well with anxiety issues. A brother whom I haven't seen or talked with in nearly 10 years is planning/wanting to come to visit with his girlfriend and children. We have a dreadful past and he has caused incredible heartache and pain and upheavel in the family since we were children. I am afraid. I am afraid I won't be able to handle it as well as I tell myself I can. I am agreeing to it for my mother. I can't go into details, too long the stories are, too complicated, and thinking about it all plummets me. I don't even know why I'm writing all this here, maybe just needing a safe place to talk some. Promise not to SU,,,,just don't promise not to SI if I have to. Thank you for being here,,,,,,,thank you so so much. Abby
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Fri, 06-08-2007 - 9:24am

Hey Abby,


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Sat, 06-09-2007 - 10:57am
Hi and thank you Lori for your thoughtful response,,'and' for sharing some of your own personal story. I do intend on discussing this with my psychdoc as he knows about my past and how this brother has affected me. I just won't be able to avoid him as he is coming to stay with us all while we vacation. I am trying hard not to anticipate bad things happening and not fill my head with 'what-ifs' as I so often do to myself. It is hard though because I think everyone thinks about the 'what-ifs' when faced with uncomfortable or difficult things. Anyway thank you again for caring it means a lot to me. (ps,,,,I didn't hurt myself)
Abby
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Sat, 06-09-2007 - 11:48am

Hey Abby,


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Thu, 06-14-2007 - 1:33am

Hi, Abby! I am sorry to hear about this situation with your brother. That is a very difficult place to be & I am not really sure what I would do in your shoes.


Having problems with certain folks myself, I know how hard it is to put the past behind me. Having to face your brother when these issues are still so painful has me worried for your safety. Please take care of yourself. I think telling the pdoc what you will be facing is a great idea. Hopefully, he/she will have some ideas to get you through this. I do know that when I have had to face situations I feared, I