Anxiety,,,,,,trigs
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Anxiety,,,,,,trigs
| Thu, 06-07-2007 - 7:08pm |
Hi,,,,,I'm not really feeling SU but I'd be lying to myself if it wasn't always on the backburner. Anxiety here,,,hard times,,,,,he's mean and I'm trying with all my strength to keep him from yelling at me,,,,,when I get yelled at it feels like chunks of my insides are being yanked out.
Anyway another anxiety issue is arising. I don't do well with anxiety issues. A brother whom I haven't seen or talked with in nearly 10 years is planning/wanting to come to visit with his girlfriend and children. We have a dreadful past and he has caused incredible heartache and pain and upheavel in the family since we were children. I am afraid. I am afraid I won't be able to handle it as well as I tell myself I can. I am agreeing to it for my mother. I can't go into details, too long the stories are, too complicated, and thinking about it all plummets me. I don't even know why I'm writing all this here, maybe just needing a safe place to talk some. Promise not to SU,,,,just don't promise not to SI if I have to. Thank you for being here,,,,,,,thank you so so much. Abby
Anyway another anxiety issue is arising. I don't do well with anxiety issues. A brother whom I haven't seen or talked with in nearly 10 years is planning/wanting to come to visit with his girlfriend and children. We have a dreadful past and he has caused incredible heartache and pain and upheavel in the family since we were children. I am afraid. I am afraid I won't be able to handle it as well as I tell myself I can. I am agreeing to it for my mother. I can't go into details, too long the stories are, too complicated, and thinking about it all plummets me. I don't even know why I'm writing all this here, maybe just needing a safe place to talk some. Promise not to SU,,,,just don't promise not to SI if I have to. Thank you for being here,,,,,,,thank you so so much. Abby

Hey Abby,
Abby
Hey Abby,
Hi, Abby! I am sorry to hear about this situation with your brother. That is a very difficult place to be & I am not really sure what I would do in your shoes.
Having problems with certain folks myself, I know how hard it is to put the past behind me. Having to face your brother when these issues are still so painful has me worried for your safety. Please take care of yourself. I think telling the pdoc what you will be facing is a great idea. Hopefully, he/she will have some ideas to get you through this. I do know that when I have had to face situations I feared, I