Worse Birthday ever.

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Registered: 03-16-2007
Worse Birthday ever.
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Thu, 06-28-2007 - 8:20pm
Today is my birthday. Its supposed to be great ya right. Boss and her boss remembered but nobody else. My mom was going to take me out to dinner but she cancelled because she wanted to take my step-dad's grand-daughters bathing suit shopping tonight, when she has them all day tomorrow to do it. Seems like nobody cares. Nobody wanted to go to lunch with me today. They didn't know it was my birthday, but I thought If I told them they'd go b/c of that. I just wanted someone to eat with today, because I didn't want to be alone, because everyone says oh its your birthday you doing anything special or who you going to lunch/dinner with, or what kind of fun are you going to have. So I tried to get myself out before depression set it. But nobody wanted to go out, they had their own lunches or T.V dinners they brought in, I even offered to buy. So I cried in the bath-room during lunch, thinking how lame I am and that I don't have any friends that want to hang out with me for 30min-1hr. People I thought were friends didn't care. My grandma didn't even call and she was like my best friend for the longest time. I usually dread my birthday, but I tried not to do that this year. I didn't want to go into it thinking it would turn out bad b/c then I wouldn't give any hope to it turning good. But it turned out to be awful anyways, the way it usually goes. Nobody cares about me, so I don't know what I'm still doing here today. I don't understand. I don't know what I expected but it never turns out good. My brother called and I don't feel great anyways and he wanted me to bring him a piece of cake, that I didn't even get a piece of. I didn't feel like driving and he started yelling at me and trying to make me feel guilty so I hung up on him. I have one of those myspace page things and the friends I have on there, that I thought were friends didn't even say anything to me or post comments or whatever, When I think it sends people birthday annoucements of your friends. So I guess they don't care or are not really my friends. I'm starting to not like myself again, and I won't see my T for 2 weeks b/c she is going on vaca then were supposed to start doing every two weeks b/c she thinks I'm doing better which I was until today. :(
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Thu, 06-28-2007 - 11:23pm

Hey Caitlin,


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Fri, 06-29-2007 - 8:32am

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A big happy birthday from me, though a bit belated! I am sorry to hear how you're feeling, Caitlan. That's a shame. Lori said many things I happen to agree with. I would like to add one thing & I want you to remember that I am almost 55 years old & have ALOT more years on you. AND... ALOT MORE disappointments under my belt.


You can make yesterday a monumental disappointment if you want. Or... you can consider it a blip on the radar screen of life & set out making today & each successive day a better one. You have the power. You hold the key. Often times we begin to think that others KNOW how we feel & that

 

 


 



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Registered: 03-16-2007
Fri, 06-29-2007 - 8:04pm
Thank you for the birthday wishes. That is what I feel to about the whole birthday thing. and I told most the people at my work last week it was my birthday today and told a few on Tuesday it was my birthday on thursday but they still forgot. Oh well. I'm feeling better today. Its just another day passing maybe next year it will be better. I guess I should stop acting like a little baby crying about my birthday. at least that is what I think I was acting like.
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Registered: 03-16-2007
Fri, 06-29-2007 - 8:07pm
Thank you for the birthday wishes, I'm gonna take your advice and just forget about nobody remembering, I have to realize everyone is not like me and can remember everybodies birthday. Its just another disapointment that I'll be able to get over. Thanks
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Wed, 07-11-2007 - 8:05am

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!


Sorry I didnt get a chance until now.

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Registered: 07-16-2007
Tue, 07-17-2007 - 10:09pm
It is alright. Thanks for the birthday wishes. I was doing good for a few weeks. but now today I'm down again. wishing for my fate. Not sure why just do. Kind of random because I had a great weekend I went to a Gary Allan concert and he is my absolute favorite and I've been waiting all year to see him. It was awesome. Then I went to a car show and went shopping and bought a kitchen starter set with basic stuff people need to cook. I'm getting things together so I can move out. soon hopefully. Its too stressful here and unhealty for me to continue to living here.Thanks for careing when I feel like there is nobody that does in the world.
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Registered: 07-16-2007
Tue, 07-17-2007 - 10:10pm
P.S. I changed my name to something I enjoy more!
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Wed, 07-18-2007 - 6:35am

((HUGS))

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Registered: 07-16-2007
Wed, 07-18-2007 - 8:15am

my inspiration? for my new name? is Gary Allan. Watching Airplanes is he new song coming out next monday to radios. I love his new song. and Gary Allan seems to be the only thing I can count on being there, at least his music he isn't here in person but I sure wish he was, He last CD tough all over made me fall in love with his music the whole album describe what I was goin thru and it was his way of healing from the loss of his wife to suicide in 2004. I think that is when she died.

Ya I just happened to be shopping with my mom and step-niece and was just gonna buy spoons for stirring stuff in pots I forget what they are called at the moment I'm too tired. lol but then my mom noticed the starter thingy. I'm slowly buying stuff so I can move out some day and be on my own.