well my mom and I got into
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| Sat, 06-30-2007 - 1:04am |
well I called up my mom and asked her when she brought my neice over ( my paretns adopted my sister 2 kids) to spend the night I asked her not to bring over my nephew bc my DH doesnt like him and neither do I he is the 1 that molested my DD when she was 5 yrs old and my mom said that it was just a little bad touch, any ways I asked her not to bring him over and she said ok, well when she got her he was with them, well I was very mad to say the least, so I waited for my mom to get back home then I called her up and was very repectful and asked her why she brought him after she said she wasnt going to well she told me that she didnt say that, the whole I am bawling and she proceeded to tell me that it wasnt fair that he has to stay at home well excuse me he is almost 18 yrs old and doesnt even have a job he has a very violent temper and I just dont want him here any ways it is my house, well I got mad at my mom and told her that she has my nephew so far up her ass that he cant see the light of day and that she has 4 grandkids here that would love to spend sometime with their grandparents but cant, and I proceeded to tell her yes he has had a bad life but so has his sister and so have I but get over it already. My parents make up excuses for his behavior and they have even lied to the police for him. well I have been crying ever since then and I am so sad bc I have tried to make my mom love me and I have tried to be the perfect daughter but I guess I can never amout to anything bc I am not my nephew. I WILL tell my parents that they are dead to my children and if they plan on getting them anything for their birthdays or for Christmas not to bc it will be sent back to them, my kids dont need this and I know I dont. my mom was telling my 15 yr old daughter tonight that her hands were ugly so I told my mom to knock it off and I told my dd that she has beautiful hands, my mom can not say anything nice about anyone. But yet my heart is still broke knowing that I will never have any contact with my mom ever again, I just wish I knew what is so wrong with me that I dont deserve her love.
Mary

Hey Mary,
I have to say you got it wrong, hon because you have ALREADY amounted to someone! You are a woman of strength, a woman of faith, a woman who never had it done for her but SOMEHOW learned by divine grace what it means to be a mom and protect your children and you are doing an awesome job of it my friend! Most moms protect their young. But there are a few that will stop or are somehow are unable to when the cost to THEMSELVES is too high. The cost to you is POTENTIALLY great--this loss of a woman you call mom but who doesn't know how to mother. Yet you are doing it anyway.... How AWESOME is that????? Don't let her take that away from you, Mary!!!
sorry to disappoint you Lori but my nephew is 1 person who I totally loathe I have laid in bed and really prayed that the Lord would just kill him and I have laid in bed and thought how this world be better off w/o him in it, so yea I can be pretty spiteful and mean, but I have my reasons rather they are good or not they are mine and I have prayed to have God help me with my ill feelings towards him but I dont think that will ever happen.
As far as my mom goes I will not talk to her and I am going to go up and see if I can get a restraining order against my nephew but I doubt I will be able bc he hasnt threatened me or my kids, my mom is dead to me it is killing me but for my kids' sake I have to my kids are my life and I will do wat ever I have to to keep them safe both emotionally and physically and if that means they haev no contact with my parents then so be it, but just to let you all know this is really hard for me bc I have always tried to gain acceptance from my mom and I have never accomplished it my mom will never love me no matter how thin I am or how perfect I try to be. My mom is toxic
(((Mary))) That's a shame. Really I do not understand why your mom protects this fellow & is so insensitive to you & your dear children. This entire situation sounds toxic to me. When it comes to a bear & it's cubs, it takes an expert IMHO. Clearer heads than mine will have to prevail. Perhaps a talk w/your *t*?
For now, I can totally understand your anger. It is normal & justified. More than likely, the anger keeps you watchful