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| Mon, 07-09-2007 - 3:57am |
We had a busy weekend painting the trim on our house and now I must face the facts that I will be resigning tomorrow. I just hate the fact that my life has been so turned upside down. I am nervous, nauseas, have to visit the bathroom a lot. Lost some weight which is not a "bad" thing I guess. But I can't convince myself that going to work everyday wondering if today I will get fired.
It also makes me mad that the owners son can hire people and doesn't get 2 forms of ID as required by the government to complete the I-9 form. Then I have to babysit the new hire folders until he gets me the required I-9. And he does this at least 2-3 a week he hires someone without getting the ID.
So if he can do that why am I being punished for entering a date wrong in the computer system when I did not realize it was the wrong date to use.
Plus I have to convince myself that the benefits are terrible. How many companies make you work 2 years before you get 2 weeks of vacation! Come on what was I thinking when I said Yes to this job!
Gosh this will be hard for me!
I need a "HUGE" hug right now and DH is asleep!

Sending a huge hug your way.
Hey there,
Hi Lori,
I am just checking with you. I am still feeling quit down about my situation and feel hopeless and worthless a lot. I try to ward off the bad thoughts but it can be tough. I nearly had a panic attach driving to walmart with DH. But we talked through it.
I just wish life did not have to be so rough. I want a normal life if there is such a thing.
So keep prayer and thinking about me because I need friends like you to keep me going.
Thanks and hope you are enjoying your summer.
Hey Disney, I'm still here, my friend... and my summer is actually going quite well--ty for asking! I'm planning a trip in August to see my partner who lives in Canada. BUT... I'll still be doing my duties here on the board along with Jan---ya can't get rid of us--lol!!
I have a hard time with the self healing. It is hard to heal something that is so hurt. I have been trying to be positive but the negatives keep creeping in. Normal would be dealing with petty life problems, like running out of gas, cable t.v. not working, dryer on the fritz. I hate this traumatic roller coaster.
When I was a child I don't recall my parents having this issues to deal with and I just want to know why me. I feel as though I am a target of someone cruel mind.
Some times I feel so unworthy and wonder what kind of future I have in store if my life is a living HE** now.
I could use some encouraging words. LOTS of them.
I hope I can be encouraging. Life has it's ups & downs. It's a struggle for many of us. I am sure your parents had struggles, but you were shielded from them. All parents try to put on a good front, as they know their children will have to face life's responsibilities & hardships soon enough. This is how I look @ it, disneynut. If my life was one long continuum & I was looking @ it, I would see that I have had more *normal* times than abnormal. (What IS that, BTW???LOL) I have had more good times than bad, though I am a bit on the negative side & always seem to recall the bad much quicker.
I celebrate the small victories. Sometimes they're few & far between. That is great that you warded off the panic. You go, girl!!! However, if things are gloomy & I imagine there's little to live for, I tell myself I deserve a medal just for getting out of bed. In the end, it is the little things that make up a life:) Do you keep a journal? That is a great way to recall the good things by keeping a record you can refer too. Make a list of all the positives in your life. Make another of your accomplishments. Believe me, there are days I can think of none, nada, zilch! But we all learned to tie our shoes;) We need to look & think harder some days. Refer to your lists when you feel down. Do you have a pet, disneynut? If it weren't for my cats & dog, I would be friendless @ this moment. Honestly, they love me unconditionally