Darla's AUGUST Journal
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| Wed, 08-01-2007 - 8:44am |
I figure I would make my life a little easier and split my therapy sessions and such into months in case I want to go back and check things so being it is August 1st... what the heck! This Month's Affirmation is Peace (http://www.dailyaffirm.com/) and today's thought is...
I give myself permission
to release disharmony and conflict from the energy field.
I find it easy to say goodbye to dis-ease and disease.
I have been keeping my negative feelings in check but it was so hard last weekend. His sister was being so mean and hateful to me this weekend. A little backgroud about SIL... I was good friends with her and when dh and I got engaged, everything changed. She stopped returning my calls and such. So I figure I would let her be. Then all of the sudden, she got engaged and decided to put her wedding together in 4 months. The time leading up to it, she was downplaying our wedding. I just let it go since the wedding we were having is how WE wanted it, not HER. So after hers and our wedding, I thought she would come back to Earth but she has been getting meaner with her words and actions. I decided to stay away from her toxic attitude. With this weekend which I couldnt avoid since it was his family's annual picnic. Friday she said some very hateful things that I was so close to punching her in the face but I didnt. But pretty much the whole picnic I avoided her. I just feel I do not belong with his family. It is some of my fault since I dont really interact with them. I just watch on the sidelines. I hide behind my camera. I dont like opening up to his family since I had a bad taste of what his sister is like. I know dh wouldnt do that to me. He is a kind soul with a warm heart. Anywho, I survived the weekend and now I can go back to concentrating on my positive outlook. I am looking forward to our anniversary and the surprise dh has planned. I cannot wait to see what it is and tell my iVillage family about it! I am playing the last few days of our wedding plans.
I am releasing the negative vibes I put upon myself. My energy field needs to be filled with positive thoughts and give myself permission to have down time but not to dwell on them. I say goodbye to my distructive behavior.











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I am ready right now to live in peace.
Well today is dh birthday.
I know that peace leads to the highest good for all
I like today's affirmation.
I deepen my awareness of the consciousness of peace, from which my joyous actions spring.
Today I get to talk with Gina.
It seem weird not having some kind of major stressor to talk with Gina last night.
Hey Darla,
Good Monday Morning to all the lurkers on this post!
sorry I have been MIA lately. I thought I was doing good.
Hey Darla,
(((Darla))) I was worried about you, too. I remember you have a vacay planned, but couldn't remember when it was. I now see you still have sometime before you'll be w/the girls. Try to keep that as your focus. When the stinkin' thinkin' sneaks in, replace the thoughts w/positives. That *inner critic* is a tough one to control. I read that it takes 8 minutes to refocus & distract yourself from the hold it has on you.
Kudos for being pro-active & not giving in to the thoughts. You are *doing* & somedays that's all you can do. As always, stay safe. If the thoughts are overwhelming, reach out. They can be dealt w/until this minor setback resolves. I am glad that you have Gina. Keep in touch. We care! (((hugs))) jan
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