cant stand this.. trigs

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cant stand this.. trigs
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Wed, 08-01-2007 - 5:25pm
I have been doing pretty good in general but my mood swings are back and my thoughts have been on my ED and death, I dream of myself dead, and all I can do is think of suicide and how I can do it right this time, have been hording pills. when I was about 16 I drank ammonia and was rushed to the hospital bc I couldnt breath I have been thinking about that a lot and what stuff I have around the house. my kids are going to be starting school in 21 days and I am afraid to be here by myself I know what is going to happen but yet I cant seem to find a way out of this darkness it never lasts very long for me. I haevnt told any one of my thoughts and feelings but right now that is all they are is thoughts and feelings and I hope that i can keep it that way.
Mary
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 08-01-2007 - 9:02pm

I am sorry to hear this, Mary): You do know that for now you are able to just *think* the thoughts & not act on them. That is a *good thing.* If they should become overwhelming, please call your dr. or *t.* If you need a med change or need to make an appointment to talk, then put that first on your agenda.


You have 21 days to make some changes. Join a club, get a PT job, volunteer, get involved with your house of worship, etc. That is the best way to deal with the upcoming loneliness. In spite of the fact that you will be missing the kids, here's a chance for you to have some time to yourself. Enjoy your freedom! You deserve it! Moms like you wear too many hats nowadays. Look @ this

 

 


 



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Registered: 02-12-2004
Wed, 08-01-2007 - 9:50pm

Hi Mary,


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Registered: 01-17-2007
Thu, 08-02-2007 - 6:51am

Mary~


I agree with Jan and Lori.