It's very sad

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Registered: 07-13-2006
It's very sad
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Thu, 08-23-2007 - 10:05am

In posting a reply to 2 others this morning I have just had a thought that I want to share. It's a very simple thought and yet one that I've never allowed myself the luxury of having.

For many years I suffered sexual abuse at the hands of my sisters husband. When I tried to reach out to my mother for help she became angry and blamed me, silenced me, acrificed me for the sake of the perfect family image. I've been in therapy for a couple of years with a wonderful therapist. Through therapy and the help of EMDR, I have looked very closely at all that has happened. I have been able to look at my situation as if looking in through a glass window and yet all the while knowing I was looking at my own image. With EMDR I have gone back and felt the pain, the fear, the hopelessness.

Today for the first time ever I am able to say that "IT IS VERY SAD." When I read the newspaper or a sad novel, I am able to say "what a sad story" but never have I allowed myself to admit that about my own childhood. Suddenly this morning I can see what a truly sad story it is and what's more.... I can know that it's okay to admit that it's sad because the sadness is in what happened to me, it is NOT who I am.

Thanks for letting me share
Lucky

LUCKY

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Thu, 08-23-2007 - 10:54am

Hey Lucky,


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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 08-23-2007 - 3:26pm

(((Lucky))) It IS sad. It is sad that you