saw my psychdoc

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Registered: 07-24-2004
saw my psychdoc
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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 5:25pm
Thank you Lori and Janis for what you said to me. I did go to see my psychdoc today and I did eventually tell him some of the things I had written here as you suggested I do. We discussed my SI behaviour and my drinking mainly. He still just doesn't seem to 'get it' when I try to explain how I am feeling and why I think I am doing what I am doing. I left there feeling so utterly exhausted and feeling that once again so much of what I said wasn't getting through. He did say it sounds like my drinking maybe becoming a problem and asked if I could cut down. Yeah sure,,,cos you suggested that I'm going to just stop. He does want me to come in next week as opposed to the usual 2 weeks so maybe there was something I said that concerned him. I honestly don't know what I expect from him,,,maybe try upping my meds ? I told him I am depressed all the time even while on what he's given me. Anyway, I just should be grateful I have someone to see and just keep telling myself he is the 'professional' and most likely is more tuned into me than I am giving him credit for,,,at least that is what I am hoping,
Thanks for being here, letting me get some of this out of me as I can't talk about it with anyone else. Abby
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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 10:35pm

Hey Abby,


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Tue, 08-28-2007 - 12:02pm

I agree with Lori, you should try to find a pdoc that you feel comfrontable with and if that means that you have to go to 10 different docs b4 you find the one that you feel that connection with then so go for it.

The pain does get better trust me, and there are times that it will come back but youhave to look beyond the depression and just know that you made it through b4 and you can do it again, I have suffered from depression and SI for many many years and the thoughts and feelings always come back but it does get better you just have to live life only for a few mins at a time and try to distract yourself from the thoughts and just know that what you are feeling isnt actual it is just a feeling I hope I said that right, Listen to the Cl's they are very wise and very caring and helpful

Mary

Mary
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 08-28-2007 - 12:57pm

You made it through, Abby! Congrats! Even though you continue to feel down, you are coping. It may not be the best coping possible, but for many of us, just getting through another day is monumental. Look @ how far you have come. Celebrate the small stuff. Like Mary posted, take it in *minutes* if you have too.


Finding another pdoc is certainly an option. Did you ever think that your pdoc isn't taking your thoughts lightly or less than seriously, but looking @ you as a strong person who can & will make it through until the next appointment? That he knows your strengths & purpose & what you are capable of? That he trusts you to keep your mental health in balance & knows that you will seek help if things fall apart? Just some thoughts that I have been working on. I am NOT an expert. Just someone who muddled through a serious, long-term depression w/suicidal thoughts.


Hang in there until your next appointment. Get help ASAP if you need too. Keep posting whenever you