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| Sun, 12-23-2007 - 12:17am |
Hello All and Happy Holidays!! It is SOOOOOO good to be back with you all--and I'm SOOOOO sorry I was "gone" so suddenly! Sandy's computer completely quit on us and we had only very sporadic access to a friend's computer. Now, things are back to normal on my end--we have a new computer!
This is the longest I've ever been away from ivillage and most importantly, from this board and I felt badly leaving you all (and my great co-cl, Jan!) with no warning. I've thought of you often and it will take me some time to catch up on everyone. Hope all is well and ty for your patience.
Hope everyone is safe and reasonably well! Hugs, Lori




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Hey Jan,
Dang it! Here I thought you were back holding down the Eastern Seaboard;)
All's ok here. I'm having some health issues, but am very optimistic. I managed to get through yesterday w/o stressing too much. I miss Jas, who remains in jail & will be for some time.
Keeping you in my T&P's, Lori. Will be able to breathe a sigh of relief when you get back home. Looking forward to a great New Year for all of us on the board! (((hugs))) jan
Hello everyone, just cutting in again, it's been a very long time. I'm glad to see the two cls are still here doing a great online job as always.
Since I last posted I have been hired as an audit support officer for a private hospital and have just got through the probationary phase so hopefully I can't be sacked without warning any more. It is a strain always being polite to those in the workplace it can't be pretended otherwise and so is always being genial to my line manager - I've miscalculated on one occasion I think in attempting to flatter him with some misanthropic line which on reflection may only be suitable for managers with general ill will
I found being unemployed very disaffecting, but unfortunately can't say I'm cured of suicide ideation because I've been having an incremental relapse into very moribund ways of thinking, which all lead to death being the cure to all my problems and dissatisfaction with the world in general gnawing at me. It's just like it used to be with only deep sleep keeping the urges at bay.
I hope everyone here is keeping body and soul together.
My best wishes to all on the board for the coming new year and hope I can be of some online help now, but I'm sorry to say, it's always the case that my personal problems are all-consuming.
Hi Michiganj, and congrats on the new job--I really do hope it works out for you and that you find the work to bring some satisfaction--or at the very least, distraction!
Sorry to hear that you are struggling with the suicidal thinking again... I know that can be really hard to cope with but I DO believe you will persevere and get through it! And of course, we are always here to offer support and encouragement. Hugs, Lori
WB! It's nice to see you again;) I am sorry to hear that the thoughts of suicide are interfering again. Is this maybe the new job(congrats, BTW)
Welcome back, Lori!
Jan has been doing an awesome job in your absence!
Heyyyyy Darla,
Thanks Jan, it's good to virtually contact you again too. The job although consisting of a lot of mundane routine work includes some interesting points like doing audit for the hospice that is on the hospital site - I learned about palliative care - and it is not too strenuous really... I remember when I was a cleaner, there was no job satisfaction and it was hideously tiring. My so called supervisor did stuff like use the same cloth on both the sink and urinals and only ever used ordinary surface cleaner... the job title 'cleaner' must always be a euphemism! The audit position is not a demoralising one in itself. I'm having trouble with personal demons though.
Hello again Lori, yes I think that using it as a distraction is the best thing that can be done. That is the best part of any working week routine, the distraction it provides. I don't really have any right to complain about the setting of the position, it actually includes a small private office that is moderately comfortable so there's no disagreeable distraction at hand.
The hospital is owned by a small organisation of nuns. Although they are spiritual people I wouldn't feel inclined to tell them about my real mindset problems, they do count as employers and it's a rule in the UK that employers should not know about problems like that or they try and sack you so I will act on that assumption.
So how are things with both of you?? xoxo
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