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| Sun, 05-04-2003 - 12:38pm |
I am so depressed right now, waking up tomorrow is not a high priority. I haven't slept for two nights, awakened by horrible acid reflux several times a night. I feel so alone in this struggle we call "life", miss Mikey, hate being responsible for everything, and have run out of "strong"! Thank God for my daughter, she is the one thing I feel I've done right! From now on, my efforts will be concentrated on her, and ds can find his own way in the world. He's going to end up a very lonely man if he doesn't change his ways. The last straw came a couple of weeks ago, when I got dd's bank statement in the mail, for the account all your donations went into. He had helped himself to $200 back in February and did it without asking or even telling me, just withdrew it to help gf out of a jam with her parents. His response when I confronted him about it? "Well, she's not going to need it anyway, she'll never make it to college!" My blood pressure must have risen about 50 points right then, and I just wanted to slap his face! So, my friends, if I'm not my usual cheerful self, I'm sorry, but right now I hurt a lot. Tears are very close to the surface and I can't find much to be cheerful about.
Sorry for the downer, just ignore me and go on to a happier post. I imagine one day I'll be okay again. Frankly, I don't really care one way or the other.
Apologetically, Pam

Love
Mary
&n
Sorry you are going thru this...take care of yourself and your dd
Hugs
RJ
I hope that things will settle down between you and yoru ds and that life can start to flow nicely between you all again!
Do not feel bad for coming on to vent... this is really the best place for it!
Wishing you lots of luck over the whole thing.
Oh and I wanted to tell you that I heard from someone who gets Acid reflux majorly bad that if you take distilled water and combine it with aloe vera juice and drink it up that you will find that it helps a lot. The fellow who told me said he would eat rolls of tums every day and since he started doing this he no longer needs them.
Now of courwse this is just taking his word for it, never have I tried it .
Lots of luck and hope you can get some rest and things will be better soon!
Hugs, Lor
Edited 8/8/2003 11:25:04 AM ET by grams2many
Grams
Hang in there and just like some of the others have said, let him come to you. He'll come around one of these days. You don't need the aggravation.
And don't apologize! We love ya!
Hugs,
Red
that is worse off than you any day of the week." What can I say? You have
every right to feel like you are but the only thing I can think of is many
prayers, hugs from family and friends. I also do not know if you are the type
of person who NEEDS to talk about problems or just being quiet is your thing
but there are some great groups you can latch on to all over the country that
can help. It is not easy to disown anyone, expecially a son but I can only
think it may be the only thing that can work right now. You need something
posative to yank on that will allow you to throw your shoulders back and
hold your head up high and look life in the eye.
I could go on but I don't think I am saying the right things, just strugling
to find the right words. Just please know you will be added to my ever-growing
list of things and people to pray for and for whatever that brings you I hope
the biggest thing is peace.
Please don't stop writing letters like the above, we really do care.
I'm sending lots of love and keeping you in my thoughts.
(((hugs)))
Jan
Jan
I think one of the hardest lessons that parents have to learn is that we can't make the decisions for our children...they have to learn to live their own life and face whatever consequences that occur. We can only hope that they learn and eventually mature.
Hang in there friend, and know we all are behind you!
Love, Char