Raining here, the farmers are doing...

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Registered: 03-25-2003
Raining here, the farmers are doing...
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Sun, 05-04-2003 - 11:38pm
the happy dance! Kansas and Missouri had bad tornadoes, and the storms are headed this way. Hope they miss us!

Haven't heard from ds today, guess he got my message. Thanks for all the empathy and compassion, dear friends, I honestly don't know how I'd get through all the crap without you guys!!! I've cried more today than I did when Mike died, isn't that a sad state of affairs? Maybe that's what some of this is, a delayed reaction, emotions that have been pent up for eight months and now flowing over the dam. I wish there was an instruction book on how to keep a family together when the husband dies! Oh Heck! Make it one for all of life!!!

I wandered around the mall today waiting to get my nails done, never did, but ended up in the bookstore, my favorite refuge. I bought Dr. Phil's "Self Matters" for ds if he ever indicates he wants to change, and if not, I'll keep it for myself! So far, it's very interesting and humorous. Got the "Teen" one for dd for Mother's Day. I saw a display of "I'll Love You Forever", and that brought the tears again. If you don't know this book, get it from the library, it's a short one, and very touching. Used to read it to ds, couldn't get through it without my voice cracking, and now.....well, life goes on.

I might try to sleep in the recliner tonight, still a lot of acid and pressure in my chest, lying flat just doesn't work. I've done Tums and Pepcid, and my prescription Prilosec, nothing's working. Last night late, I thought I was having a heart attack. What does that feel like? I hear it's different for women than for men.

Well, got a little laundry and dishes done today, dd got some picking up done, so I guess I'll hit the sack, or the chair. Told my boss I won't be in tomorrow, going to try to see the doc. Thank you all again for the support.

Hugs, Pam

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Mon, 05-05-2003 - 11:51am
Pam I am sure that what you were going through is very normal with all that has happenned to our lately especailly loosing your husband. Pam I am not sure you remember I too suffer from acid reflux disease. When all else fails I use Gaviscon you can buy it over the counter. I use the chewable tablets but it does also come in liquid form. It really works for me try it and see what it will do for you.

Hope today is a better day for you my friend.

Love

Mary

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Mon, 05-05-2003 - 3:19pm
Hope your day improves Pam. Chin up and smile. I know that isn't easy with all you've been thru but it helps so keep doing it! And remember...we get to give you hugs for REAL in Vegas! Cyber hugs for now!

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Mon, 05-05-2003 - 4:41pm
hey pam sometimes we all need one good cry every so often, to clear out our system!!personally i enjoy howling like a wolf even the poor dog runs, but god it does do wonders!!take care,hope things get better for you!!((hugs))mindy