This is a trip but I am not freaking out
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| Thu, 07-03-2003 - 9:34pm |
A lot of you and I have been emailing back a forth so you girls know I had to go to the doctors today. I have been feeling really bad now for about three and half weeks. But I just figure it was a bad lupus flare and really did not freak out over being sick again until now. I went to the doctor because it feels like I have the flu and an upper respritory infection plus sore throat and a horrible head ache and ear ache and a bad cough and I can not hear out of my left ear. Well last week the doc gave me antibiotics and stuff for all these sympthoms. But none of this went away if any thing it has gotten worse. So I figure I would just go in and get my ear clean out today and waa laa a new and improved Hula Girl butttttttt nooooooo....... my life can not go that smoothly... naaa... can't have that because the lupus bug would not have any fun with my body then.
Any how to make a long story longer... I went in today and they started running all these tests on me... First before I get into that let me back up a minute... before I went to the doc I went out to my car and started it up so it would be cool when I got into it to go to the doc. So I slightly closed the door to the car with the car running, air on, and Jimmy Buffet music blaring with all the windows rolled up. I run into the house and got my purse went back out to my car and the car doors locked on me. I have no extra key but Williams does. So poor sweet William had to drop every thing at work and run home unlock my car turn it off.... Then the dear Man decided that this was a omen to bad stuff to come so he decided to go to the doctors with me instead of going back to work.
Okay now I am at the doctors he gives me a physical and says Leilani I need to run more tests on you right now. Usually he sends me out to some specialist when he knows I am in a lupus flare and my body is attacking an internal organ. But not this time so I figure how bad can it be these tests are being ran in his office? Girls... the nurse did these weird tests on my ears and leaves quickly to get the doc. He comes in and he is red in the face and I think oh this is not good. Well girls I am deaf in my left ear. He showed me the computer read out from the ear test and my right ear had a big spike on the sheet and my left ear was flat linning. Wew! could not believe it.... now my disease has left me deaf in my left ear?! So of course you girls know how I reacted to that! ha ha ha.... thats a big Duh ha? See I can hear your thoughts while ya read this!........
I just looked at the doctor and said okay I understand now fix me up! He didn't laugh like he usually does. Instead he was serious and told me I had a severe infection through out my body(upper respirtory, ear, throat lymph nodes infected ect. ect.). This congestion is so bad that it has severe inflammed inner my ear, lympth nodes etc etc... Now girls I am usually cool about any thing that goes wrong with my body during a lupus flare...but girls I am loosing it now. How in the world can I go seven months in remission then the lupus bug hits me again with a vengence! What is it's problem! I am on a million drugs again! And Girls.... this who situation is totally unacceptable to me! What am I going to do now?
Does any one know how to evict a lupus bug without "it" knowing your doing it. I am freaking big time here. You girls have not seen me freak out in in in ... huuuummmmm.... has to be a long time when it comes to my health! Now my every day problems yeah I freak out alot over those but my health?
But you know what girls this is not going to stop me from going to MIL's birthday party tomorrow..... I am going to that party... So what if I have to stay out of the sun and can't drink Maitai's all day and laugh and joke around and chase the kids around the house and throw them in the pool ha girls? It's not the end of the world ha? But girls I can not hold a conversation with any one because I can't hear what is being said and all I can say now is What? So how long is that going to take people to stop talking to me and minute or two that is going to hurt me dearly!!! Wew this is going to be a challenging for your Hula girl. Oh well I will just lay on the couch all day and for once in my life watch people all day without being able to join in the fun.
To me tomorrow is going to be a quest that I am going to conquer... Ya want to know why? other then I have to deal with my MIL. Well sweet William doubled my housewife allowance and even threw in a tip so I would go to his mother's birthday party and be good. So if I don't go I have to give the thousand dollars back plus the one hundred dollar tip he gave me for being a good little island princess to his mother while I am at her house tomorrow. I can't give the money back I need it. Sweet William's birthday is coming up and I wanted to use the extra cash to get him this new and improved telescope he has wanted but thought it was to much money to spend on himself.... Boy girls what we do for our Men ha? And ya know the worst part is? Being good to my mother in law was not in our marriage contract. William says it is ... it was just in fine print... ha ha ha...
Okay this is not the end of the world for me ha girls! The worst part is that I do not know how loud I am talking because I can not hear myself talk... but that is okay this condition can not last forever ha girls??? Has any one else out here in cyber space ever have gone through any thing like this? If you have could you please tell me how you coped. Not being able to hear people talk is the worst punishment ever bestowed on me! I love to listen to people talk. People are a riot! Help!!!
This is no joke girls... nor am I blowing this out of portion your Hula Girl is in deep trouble here girls! I will take any extra positive thoughts any of you have stored away for a rainy day. You don't even have to answer this post just do some esp mind melt or something to help your crazy hula girl through this battle! Please...
Mahalo for reading this and sending me what ever ya got!
Aloha,
one sick Hula Girl

Have a special day!
Hugs
RJ
William says he will just go back to making a bed in the back seat of the tahoe and we will be set. I feel so sorry for him but I realy did not realize I was in such bad shape if I did I would of gone to the doctors sooner. I thought I just got the flu... boy what a dummy! I don't care what my body is up to this is the fourth of July I am going to celebrate quitely... All of us in the good ole U.S.A. have gone through alot some more then others so I am going to remember all who has made it possible for me to celebrate this holiday and have a good time just watching every one have a good time! And I will remember your Son too tomorrow RJ. Sweet William went out and bought the deviled eggs already made from the store. He said he is going to put them on one of my hawaiian plates and let everyone think I made them... That will funny... Lets see if any one has the guts to eat them thinking I made them.... ha ha... Then Saturday I will allow myself to crash and burn. My doctor wants me to go to the ER on Sunday and have him page there if I am not showing any improvement by then. Boy this is the pits....
Well I am really tired so I think I will go to bed early tonight it is a little after nine now but it has been a long day for me and I am realy pooooped out. Good night RJ!
Aloha,
Hula Girl
Aloha,
Lei
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