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| Tue, 07-08-2003 - 3:37pm |
Good morning Ladies!
Go out and make your life interesting! If your parents told ya that when you were a child do you think you would be where you are now? Or would you have lived your life differently?
With me I would not change a thing about my life. All the trials and tribulations in my life has made me more resilient and a better person. As a result I consider myself to a survior instead of a victim in life. I have had a good time with Leilani! So much so that some times I forget how old I am and go way beyond my comfort zone in order to win more then loose in this game we call life. I have some regrets but when I look back on them I can see how I grew out of the experiences I have gone through in my life. I try every day to make my mountains that I am faced with into gold mines with Gods help..... who ever you conceive him to be. And if I think I can not go on and I see the task before me as impossible for me to win than I think about the little musturd seed which will grow into a giant tree when watered and feed properly. And then I okay with my life again.
Some days it is not hard at all for me to just let go and live and make my life interesting! But there are other days that I struggle with it. But when I look at the alternative... you know the path well traveled I can see that if I choose that path my life would not be as interesting to me as it is today. I am never bored with Leilani because she always seems to have a party going on in her head all the time. I think some times my body goes on strike because it is the only way I will slow down and stop and listen to people in my life that needs to be heard.
The other day I saw some one I had not seen in a long time. I could not believe he was my age because his body image was the look of a player in the victim game. And he acted like he was a 75 years old instead of 52. He was all caloused on the inside of his brain and had shut down to all the opportunties just waiting for him to take....because??? I don't know why?? I can't think of any excuses for any one who just shuts down and quits seeing all the positive possibilities still waiting for them in life no matter what age they are. It's as if he just gave in because that is an easyer path to take in life then living life as though it was new. To weird. Then on top of that he actually tried to rationalized why he grew so old in his attitude so early in his life. I am not saying the path that I have choose to live is any better or worse than any one elses. I am just telling ya this because I am facinated in the chocies of paths some people wish to take in life which leads them no where close to learning new ways to live life. Understand girls? I am not judging any one in this post? Then why am I writing it you ask. Well I think some one needs to hear my thoughts today out there in cyberspace..... I might be wrong but what the heck I am going to write this any way! Do you girls ever follow your intution even when it is bizarre? Well I am today.
Take for instance this board. Girls this board is the same board as it was before the new format hit it. What has changed is the people on in. Some people are afraid of change while others embrass it as though it was gold. I love it here.... you guys are fun to play with. As you all know I have came back with a new attitude! With a new board I figure it is time for me to let go of my old ways and become a new person. The idea to change was not because of any thing that was said to me it was a revelation that with a new board I have another chance to be some one I like better then who I was. Any minute or any second of every day I know I can stop what ever I am doing or saying and choose to go down a different path because deep down I know it will make me a better person to myself.
I miss all you girls terriblly who have decided not to come out in play on this new and improved board. First I was really depressed about loosing all you girls but then I thought about how this board was 31/2 years ago when there was only a few girls posting on this board and we had a good time so whatz my problem I asked myself the other day.
I am looking at the change of ownership of this board as an positive opportunity for me to meet new cyber sisters and cheerish the ones that have stayed. There is that saying that says some thing about there is always a reason why things change... I forgot how it goes.... maybe one of you girls can help me out with it... Okay I hear ya thinking to yourselves as you read this--> how in the heck do you know what saying I am talking about? ha ha ha... I love it when one time one of you girls said that you had no idea what I was talking about in some of my posts but enjoyed them any way! Isn't that a riot!
I think I am writing this because so many of you girls have chosen not to play the new and improved Queen game with a twist. I think I just don't understand how people can pass up an opportunity that is staring them in their face that will make them laugh again and enjoy the little qurks in others. I put a twist in this game on purpose and Queen Pam took it and ran with it. Pam Mahalo for playing this game with Cindy and me. I guess it will just be us three choosing to put joy back into this board. That is cool girls we all are allowed to be and do with this new board as we see fit! I am disapointed in you girls because what has happened in the pass has shut off your laugh valves. But it is your choice so Pam, Cindy and I are going to respect your feels guys. But at the same time the three of us are going to laugh at and enjoy bring sunshine into each others life. It is just a shame that more of you have choosen the path well travel on this. But what the heck we are women and we can do what we want to do which will make us happy even though that happiness comes with a hefty price tag.
My thoughts on all this is as follows...
There are times in every life when we feel hurt or alone... But I believe that these times when we feel lost and all around us seems to be falling apart are really bridges of growth. We struggle and try to recapture the security of what was... but almost in spite of ourselves we emerage on the other side with a new understanding, a new awareness, a new strength. It is almost as though we must go through the pain and the struggle in order to grow and reach new heights.
I thought I would share this with you girls in hopes that it benefits some out there in cyberspace. I have no idea why I thought of this maybe it is an attempt to get Mindy to come back and write an ode for this new and improved board... Or maybe it is just my weird way to say goodbye to all the girls who thinks there is just to much carnage on this board to make it fun again. I don't know why I am writing this girls but I have an over whelming urge to share this with all you girls today. It is my Aloha to all the girls who we have lost and a hello to all who are going to come.
Fellow cyber sisters-->
Be a Torch... or be a spark...
Be a candle in the dark... or be a sunbeam or a star....
But always be the shining light you are....
Now I am going to go lay on the couch and make my life interesting while I gradually recover my health.
Aloha,
Leilani
P.S. If your scratching your head and trying to find the moral of the story well then I guess this post was not ment for you. You lucky dog!

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Aloha,
Lei
&n
&n
Life? Regrets? Yes, I've had a few too, but too few to mention! (Thanks, Mr. Sinatra!) Every experience has given me something to grow on, whether it was a happy memory, a lesson learned, or a huge mistake! Every life that has touched mine has added to who I am, and whether that's good or bad only God knows! Knowing what I know now, I would take a different road in a few situations, but then maybe I wouldn't have met Mikey and had my wonderful children, and that would have been such a loss I can't even imagine!
Have a good week, feel better, and keep on keeping on!
Hugs, Pam
lately including me. And would I change my
past life...not a single bit!!
There were a few rough spots in my past 47
years, but heavily outweighed by all the good.
Lei, don't worry. You know we love you.
Just move forward, and with total
positiveness, and not even bringing up
the past. It really helps the whole board
to move forward when we do not bring up
the past. And it always has moved forward
come to really think of it.
And, in their own time, without anyone giving
them hints, the very few who have not been
here in awhile will come back or just pop
in for a visit, and I am gonna totally
respect that and move on.
Love your posts as they are interesting. I
am one of those who may not always understand
what you are saying, but they are fun!
Glad you are feeling so much better.....
((((hugs))))
ahui hou,
Cindy
~*~ Aloha to all .... ~*~
Get better
Hugs, LM
Aloha,
Lei
I'd only change a couple of things, and then only if I could know then what I know now. Otherwise, I wouldn't change a thing, since all of my past has made me the me I am now. Did that make any sense? LOL
Wish I could get here more often, but life happens.
Jan
Jan
So you don't understand why so few are posting here, either? Oh good... Okay Queen Pam so it is not just me ha? I thought every one put me on their black list or some thing which is located in the last page of our profiles. I had a few in mine than I thought that is silly so I took them out of the trash can and dusted them off and put them back in play again.... ha ha ha ha... Boy if they are lurking Queen Pam I am dead meat again ha? ha ha ha
I wish the rats would of told me we are in sinking ship too Queen Pam because if I knew... and I do not doubt that it is because it is so sad around here lately...... then I could of saved some of those them by throwing them a life jacket or some thing to keep them all afloat through this board's transistion into the twillight zone...... Shame! Shame! Shame! I can not believe people gave up so easily.... huummmm........ Man if they bail that easily then there is no way they could live in my body... I do not have pleasure of knowing the word "give up" unless William reads my posts and reminds me that I am an Island Princess and Island Princess's do not beg for any thing in life (not even for play mates he says)! ha ha ha... He tells me that an Island Princess just puts her nose up in the air and finds the newbies to play with..... ha ha ha...
Queen Pam you said "So many good friendships were started and now it seems like they've all fallen by the wayside simply because the format has changed. If there's another reason, I wish someone would clue me in!"
YEAH I SECOND THAT MOTION! Well Like I said I feel better now knowing your stuck out in the cold in cyber space and clueless like me! ha ha ha....
I agree their is so much potential for fun, sharing, and support around here and people don't wish come out and play.... In my opinion.... I really do not think people should take life so seriously it kind of takes the fun out of the fun in living... Makes no sense to me at all why this is happening to the board but what ever I am still going to play here in this play ground I have known so well over the years. There is no way I am giving up on all my friends I have made here. And if I have to then okay I will but I am still going to play like there is no tomorrow with all the girls and newbies who are here now. I am not a quiter! I want to yell "GET A GRIP" but I don't dare! "Enough is enough" one person said to me one time and that is what I want to scream at the world at the top of my lungs now..... but I won't because I am turning over a new leaf even if it kills me Queen Pam! ha ha ha ha...
It is as though everyone thinks the grass is greener on the other side. Well let me tell ya it isn't! And I should know because I went looking for that green patch of grass and found none more greener than the grass we got growing right here if everyone would just chip in and water and feed it every day. Oh Well everyone including me has to learn the hard way I guess.
Here! Here! Well Said Queen Pam! I have no regrets either... except one.... and that is when I allowed this friggen free loading lupus bug stay for a while inside my body because I thought he would tired of it and soon leave... But noooo.... that little sucker probably thinks I have not learned the lessons it has thrown at me in order to move on.... so it stays and kicks back and enjoys my life at my expense.... That is the only regret I have! All the other trials and tribulations in my life is like you said... that if I did not experience them then I probably would have gone in a different direction and never would have experience the sweet love that William has for me when I not acting like the wife from hell!!! huuummm... reminds me I need to take a prozac before the "good guy" comes home! ha ha ha
You enjoy being Queen of this board for the week and thank you for sharing your wonderful thoughts on this whole situation that is going on here. I feel so much better after having this little chat with you Queen Pam... and.... Mahalo for being a great Queen...
One more thing and I will let ya go. Did ya read where I called up my Dad and said hello to him for the first time in 5 years..... Mahalo for reminding me Queen Pam that life is short and that I do not have enough time left with my Dad as it is so I might as well enjoy his oneryness while he is still with me!... ha ha ha...
Aloha! your royal highness,
Hula Girl
Aloha,
Lei
&n
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